Small town Big heart (on hold)

Relization

     I wake up in a white room and heard the sound of beeping. I look around and see I'm in a hospital room. I try to sit up but feel a sudden jolt of pain shoot through my body. I let out a sharp cry of pain, a few moments later a nurse comes in because she heard my cry. She heads over to the bed and puts a hand on my shoulder.
     "Good to see you up but, You shouldn't be moving around hun" she said in a slight southern drawl.
     "What happened, why am I here?"
     "Oh sweetheart I am so sorry you and your father were hit by a car." She said more sympathetic than she should of.
     "where is my dad? Is he ok?"
     She sighed "When the paramedics arrived to the accident he was already gone, you where a few feet ahead of him. Some people said they saw him get in front of you. If he wouldn't of done that you would of been dead. We looked up your information and called your emergency contact. I think her name was Karla. She said she would be here in a few days, that was 3 days ago so she should be here today but she can't take you out for another week or so. You broke a few ribs and your left leg in three places."She rambled on
     I just ignored her and looked at the cast on my leg and the bandage on my chest. "Can I have some time alone I need to think things through."
     She sounded surprised to hear me interrupt her "oh uh sure if you need anything press the call button."
     Why am I not crying? Why do I feel numb? This doesn't make sense, why do I feel nothing? I just found out I lost my only parent and I feel nothing. Am I a bad person? No I'm just in shock that's what it is. I look am the side table and see my phone sitting there, the screen was cracked.
     I carefully pick it up trying to not cut myself. I turn the screen on and see I have 7 texts from Kristi (my best friend in the world). I text her back. Sorry I'm in the central city hospital, room 407 please come see me I need to talk. I hope she comes. I set the phone down because that's the only person I think actually cares about me, besides my aunt.
     As I set the phone down the door opens and aunt Karla came in. I can tell she has been crying. She runs up and gives me a hug and I wince because she hit my ribs.
     "Hey Alex I'm so sorry this happened to you. I've already collected the things I could from the apartment. I will have the rest put in storage. But anyway, you will be ok to leave next week and we will be going to my place, up north in Alexandrea. But till then I won't leave you." Why is every one I've talked to today rambling?
     Kristi burst through the door an hour later and gave me an even harder hug than my aunt.
     "What happened Alex? Why did you drop off the face of the earth for a few days? I was so worried."
     "Kristi, me and my dad were hit by a car Saturday. He's dead." I said that Cold and callous like it had no meaning. She just stood there in shock tears in her eyes. She reached over and hugged me and for the first time I felt emotion. I hugged back and started to cry.
     "In a week or two I will be able to leave the hospital and I will be moving up north with my aunt. I'm sorry but I probably won't be seeing you much anymore. Maybe you can come down every now and then."
     " yeah I guess. Let not stop texting." She looks over and sees the state of my phone "after you get a new one."