I Remembered..

Chapter 1

I remembered the way you looked during class, never looked someone in the eyes, I remember you used to say
you didn't want them to see you the way you saw yourself.

I remembered how you always cried during study hall, how your tears hit the paper, tear after tear until the paper was soaked..

I remembered the day you started wearing long sleeves, it was September 21st, whenever someone asked why I remembered you always said you were cold but we both knew really why.

I remembered the day you were walking home from school when these boys pushed you on the ground, and I remembered you just sitting there after not even getting up.  

I remembered the time I saw those marks on your skin, you didn't realize I saw them but I saw them.. And there were so much and all I could think was "why why why"  

I couldn't say anything, I just stood looking at them I looked and I looked how could someone so beautiful do that to themselves.

I remembered looking at the bracelet you always wore it said "hope" I never knew why you wore it. Maybe it was because you wished you had it? Or maybe it was because you used to have it but you lost it.. 

I remembered the way your eyes used to glimmer and shimmer in the light they would twinkle.. But now they'd just dull.. No color or twinkle at all.. Just dull..