Just a little note

Smile

Hello.

You can leave your fake smiles and cover-ups at the door. I want you to be real with me for a minute. I want you and I to share this moment as perfectly imperfect human beings that God created together. I know all about fake smiles and hoping no one really notices that you're not fine, but still internally screaming out that somebody sees and stops to care. I want you to know I have gone through experiences that have left me scarred, and I'm still learning to forgive and forget. I'm still learning to heal.

You're not alone.

I want you to feel like you can talk to me. I'm not going to tell you "it's just a phase," or simply just agree with everything you say, necessarily. We are all people, and we all have feelings and opinions. As I want you to respect mine, I will gladly listen to you and respect yours. Your opinion matters.

If you just want to tackle me in a hug and cry on my shoulder, do it. I'll cry with you.

You and your feelings are just as important as any of mine, and it's taking me a while to realize how much my feelings actually matter, because sometimes, it certainly doesn't feel like it. But I want you to know I'm here. I'll talk to you about what I've gone through, and if you're on the edge and you need someone to talk you through it and help you stand again, I'm here.

That's something I've suffered through- not feeling like anybody cares, or that there's no one to turn to.

I'm not perfect, nor are you. Don't expect that of yourself. I expect it of myself all the time, and it only makes things worse. When I expect myself to get absolutely perfect grades or play a certain song perfectly, it all becomes too much, and I feel defeated, worthless, and as if I'll never be good enough.

I never want you to feel that way.

If I could take all the pain from you and carry it myself, I would. And I would never wish my pains upon you. What I can do, however, is support you the way I know how, and be there whenever you need me.

I want you to smile. I want to know that you feel fulfilled in your life and your relationships with people. Not every person we ever meet is going to be someone we get along with, and that's okay. That's what makes us individuals, and that's what makes our friendships that much more meaningful.

I will be there for you however I can, and if it takes me sending you a funny picture every so often, I will put your name on my list of people to send it to. I want you to feel loved as a person, and I want you to know that I am here to be your friend.

It took me a while, but I've begun realizing again how much it means to be loved by people, and to allow myself to open up again. I don't want you to have to experience the absence of that love.

Overall, you are a beautiful, amazing, extraordinary, unique creation of God, and you should know how much you are loved, and whatever may come, I'm here for you.

I wish you all the love and luck in the world.

Thanks for your time, you beautiful people.

Love,

TheLeft-HandedWriter

P.S. If you don't want to talk in front of other people or just want to text me, just come talk to me. I'm all ears! <3