If only...

Unrequited

My legs were shaking and my arms felt like weights on my shoulders. The voices of everyone in the room started to lift away from my mind and the same with everything around me. Across from where I stood, the one person I trusted, the one person who I let through my armor, was finding love with someone who was not me. His almond hair was just brushing her forehead and the girls golden hair was all on his shoulders. He kept pulling her closer with each short breath. I looked in the air hoping my tears could find a way back into my eyes. But there was no chance. I put my drink down and let the two keep on loving without me. The stairs had grown longer with each step I took. People kept passing by not noticing why I was grasping the rail so tight my knuckles were turning a very light white. The top of the stairs were no better then the bottom. Each person in the room was backed up against the walls and kissing as their life depended on it. Yet there were few people play ping pong or just sitting talking to each other with drinks in their hands. I walked to the restroom with my hands still shaking. Once I was in, I turned the faucet on and splashed water all over my face. " He chose her over you Clara. Just get that in your head." I repeatedly told myself those words, but looked up and saw my eyes stained red and tears still streaming. It was soon getting hard to breath while I was panting and not wanting to stop. My eyes were shut and I opened them and smiled. " I'm fine. I'm okay." " Liar." I whipped around and saw a tall boy with a red flannel slightly unbuttoned and his dark brown hair brushed to the side. " Conner." He started walking closer and I started to back myself into a wall. " Saw James making out with Sammy I am guessing?" I bit my lip with a slight nod of my head. We were both now so close together I could count the tiny freckles around his nose. " Did you really love him?" Conner's voice was turning into a whisper. " I'm not sure actually." I stuttered. " Do you want to find out?" His voice was now barely audible.
" How would I do that?" "Like this." He turned his head to the left and closed his eyes. Our lips met and started to move in sync. His warm hands touched my cheek and I let in a deep breath. We done this for nearly a minute or two until he finally fell back. When he did my world suddenly went cold again and I felt empty once more. " Feel anything?"  Conner could not help but smirk at the words. " I felt the earth move around us." I responded. " Did James ever do this to you?" " No." He pulled me in again and whispered in my ear with a secretive smile. " Well that Dumb guy missed out on something."