Raven was 12 when she found out that the women that she had stayed with over the weekend with her dad was giving birth that year. Still young she didn't know how "pregnant" worked and stuff. All she knew was, she is giving birth to a baby who her dad said it would be her sister. Well lets go back a few years before this event happened.
3 years ago...
Raven knew her family wasn't as close since this woman came into the picture. Her dad didn't even live under the same roof anymore. Always giving excuses of "working late". She was naive at that time and didn't know any better. Soon she found out he was staying with another women. One weekend her dad asked her to stay over, Raven thought that it was harmless just staying over her place. Just happy she was able to spend time with her dad seeing as he never came home anymore. So naturally she thought it was "ok" to be staying over and stuff. That women wasn't "harmful" or whatever. Had she known her dad was already having an "affair" with the women, Raven would had straightaway said no to her dad but she was still young. Still listening to her dad like any young child would do. Weekends came and gone and soon she found herself staying there almost everyweekend just cause her dad fed her some "excuses".(She wonders what her mum thinks of it)
One day, Raven was wearing her shoes getting ready for tennis when she was paitenly waiting for her dad to come out. After waiting for sometime she decided to go in and see what's taking him so long. BIG MISTAKE! Raven found herself looking at them embracing. Still overwhemled by their action she quickly left the house and waited for her dad to come out. He didn't say anything(LIKE DUH). This has never been brought up again but after this incident dad started bringing her for "family trips"(hello it should be with her mum not this bitch) It's not like Raven could do anything. She did ask why mum isn't coming but her dad just ignored her question(WTF). Happy to spend time with her dad but anoyed that women has to tag along as if we're a family.
Fast forward to now....
Over the years Raven has finally understood all of this. She has fought over it with her dad plenty of times but ends up losing, so now the only thing she can do is to make him feel guilty. She is sick of being the middle person between her mum and her dad.
There isn't a soul in her life who knows her better than her BestFriend whom she told everything to and knowing her BestF, she's consistently being reminded on how it's all God's plan and all that jazz. Raven is trying to hard to see the bright side in this dark life but it's not getting any better. In fact it's getting worst. Going to church and seeking God means nothing to her anymore because she ends up getting wounded in the place where it was supposed to be a refurge. God keeps on reminding us that he'll never leave us nor forsake us at our time of need but just take a look at this life that you "planned" for this girl that thought she had everything till she doesn't know what to do with it anymore.
Her mum is ill and you expect her to be taking care of her when logiclly the its the "husband/love of her life" duty to protect her till her dying breath and everytime you come back your busy "that person" and spending MORE time with that family than with mine.
Raven has tried countless of ways to forget about the pain but the insane methods aren't affecting her anymore. She has no place in her heart that she can call home anymore. An only child crying out loud for a savior to bring her back to a place where she can finally feel home once again.
[What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger...but what if it kills you first?
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