I was alone...
I have no where to go...
And no one wants me.
Prologue:
I have no name, I am no one. Banned from my own pack, I was nothing; but one thing I do know is that I am a wolf. Many would call me a rouge but to me, I was just... me. I had nothing to hide from, no attachments; so if I had to describe myself in three simple words they would be: I am free.
If I thought back to the time of which I wasn't alone I found that my memories were fogged, hard to remember even but I will try my best to describe it to you.
Chapter One:
My father was the leader of a smaller pack named the Sun Blood Pack. We were known for our softer, less violent methods so many of the surrounding packs often thought of us as weak, harmless. But from within.. we were anything but; strict laws were put down which were always obeyed and if you disobeyed there was much to fear. Don't get me wrong, being in the Sun Blood Pack was something to be proud of, but I? I hated it. I was treated well only because my father was Alpha, no one gave me respect because I earned it, no one wanted to get close because of the Alpha's wrath. Who would get close to the Sun Blood Packs Alpha's daughter? No male was allowed near me who was unmated, I was not allowed to date... I had no freedom.
I remember when a pack had been moving through our land; there were many in that pack, a lot of males and a lot of females. A few people from had found their mates during the week they were here and then there was me. I was locked away for an entire week! Might I tell you this wasn't very fun.. and while I do see where my father was coming from I found it unfair. So what would any young girl, yearning for love do? Of course, she would sneak out late at night to meet a boy.
This boy wasn't just a normal boy, he had the most beautiflul eyes known to man! They were the purest green, with small fleck of gold and brown that was brought out by his dark hair that often fell over his eyes. His stature was well above my own; at least six foot, with a muscled frame; wide shoulders and chest, taunt belly that wasn't too ripped. His hands... were the works of the Gods in themselves: wide palms and thin long fingers that spoke of love with each stroke. Don't get me started on his lips... those lips of his were killer.
I may not remember much of my past life... but this is the memory that stands out the most. I couldn't tell you why and have no interest in telling you anyway; but alas, I have peaked interest have I not?
"Olivia, my dear, why can't we talk to your father about us? He's a nice guy, I bet he'll understand more than anyone." the nameless god spoke. It was so cute how his eyebrow quirked...
"We cannot tell him, no matter what you may think, Alpha Farwell is not who he seems. He can be-" I looked away and to the ground. I hated talking about him. I never liked the man in the first place and really only loved him because he was my father and I know my mother wouldn't approve even though she had the right idea of leaving as soon as she could.
"He can be what, dear? Olivia, darling, why do you look so scared? He's you're dad for pete's sake I highly doubt he will do anything to harm you." His wide palm captured my chin, engulfed it really, and turned my face to his,his green eyes searching my gold ones. "I love you and nothing could ever change that, you are the most amazing woman I've ever met." I watched the nameless god as his eyes flicked off my face only to be touched by those perfect lips. Soon enough my own eyes closed and pleasure took place.
Just as I was creeping back into my room from the wonderful night I had, the house lit up stomping was heard through out the house until they rested at my door; a slow growl alerting me that I was in some deep shit. There was no use hiding that I had snuck out, so I did the only thing I could, I sat and waited until He entered. There he stood, all Alpha mode; his eyes were that peircing red, his muscles bunched and straining. This one moment couldn't be any scarier than it already was but then He just had to speak. "HOW DARE YOU DISOBEY ME? I TOLD YOU NEVER TO LEAVE YOUR ROOM WITHOUT MY PERMISSION." he said as he took that scary step towards me. Shrinking away from him with a whimper my gaze slid down until I could only see the purple flowers on my sheets. "LOOK AT ME OLIVIA!!!", his voice boomed, the windows shaking.
I remembered a time when I loved this man, when I felt nothing but happiness whenever he looked at me or gave me that approving pat on the head. Alpha Green of the Sun Blood Pack was my father, well, he used to be until mom died. He was never the same since the accident; I mean I don't really blame him but he blames me. I could have saved her, I could have made things right. So now I was being punished for my crimes. I killed the Luna of our pack, my father's mate and my mother.
Chapter Two: Retailiation
"I'm sorry, Alpha. I couldn't stay away from him, he was just so nice to me. I thought maybe that I was really in love, but I see now that I was wrong." I whimpered out. My wolf had crawled into her corner, tail tucked between her legs and her ears pressed flat to her skull; deep down she hated just how much out Alpha hated us. She just wanted the love a father should give; it's only right.... right?
"You should be sorry, whore. It's a good thing you murdered your mother, though I suppose she's rolling her her grave. You know you don't deserve love. All you want is to be fucked like the slut you are," he stood above me, pushing my head like a bully would to a nerd. "But you know you aren't allowed to fuck males that I don't give you permission too, but yet you still disobey me. I give you so much yet you still seem to disrespect me." He laughed cruely as he grabbed me by my hair and threw me against the wall. I was only able to let out a whimper before he lifted me once more to give me a slap to my cheek; that evil smile on his face.
On the outside... I was the wolf I should be; cowering from her Alpha as he beat me, but on the inside I was nothing but a black hole. I had no emotion... no pain. Nothing. I was tired of the beatings that this man dealt me, if you even wanted to call him a man. Alpha Green raised his fist to hit me once more, but his fist never connected.
Vengence. Wrath.
That was all that was inside me, buring like a candle that refused to die. I was alive... yet dead. His fist was wrapped in mine as I snarled, my teeth snapping at his face. No more. I was done. "You will no longer toment me, ALPHA. I, Olivia Green, hereby rid myself of this ungrateful pack. I am free, Vengance will set me free. I am Rouge." At this time, I had not realized how many people had been drawen to us. But outside in the hall, many of my former pack had formed. Some wore faces of pity, others anger, it no longer mattered. I released his hand, and recovered myself.
"Olivia, please... don't leave. " I looked up at the face thatr I had once loved as a child. "I need you to bed here." he said as he reached out. Stepping swifty to the side, I shifted to my wolf. He reached out to me again; coming much to close to my teeth, I snapped. He had the balls to feel ashamed and heart broken. I turned to my window that had remained open, standing on the ledge I turned back to look at my former pack and realized there was nothing... nothing in my head. I hated that they never stepped up to help me, protect me from a father and Alpha that beat me but I guess that's why I was able to become the way I am; free.
