NEVER ENDING SADNESS:
Have you seen happiness?
Im looking for her
I have a problem
I need her help
She has no face
She has no appearance
She asked me to trust
But I'm falling apart
I look happy
I look fine
But in the inside
I'm struggling bad
Oh my god she is there
With her arms open
Waiting for me to catch her
Ok here I go
Please don't fool me
I'm Running, I'm catching speed
I'm falling to the ground
And now she has to leave
I'm really tired
I'm really scared
I finally found her
And she disappeared in the air
My question is
Is this gonna get any worst?
Wait a second
Am i cursed?
They said crying will help
I'd cried an ocean
And I'm still the same
Just make me a favor
Punch me really hard
Sadness is inside me
And I need her out
My own mind is fooling me
I don't know who to trust
Maybe you or her
Are only going to tear me apart
So tell me
Whats the purpose of living
Of living with fear
I don't know if I want to continue breathing
Depression is whispering
right next to my ear
and he is repeating:
-I won't leave
you belong to me
I controle your thoughts
And your self esteem
You don't deserve the good things
The bad things are what you deserve
And I will never
Stop getting on your nerves
Everybody is going to let you down
I won't, but maybe one day
I will let you drown-
Sometimes I wish
To go to bed
And never wake up again
So this could finally
Come to an end
But you know
That will destroy my family
And maybe my friends
So let's just handle the pain
That's inside my stupid brain
One day
she will destroy mi insides
Just give her some days
But I know she won't stop
She's hurting me
In the right spot
Don't miss understand
I don't need your help
Cause at this point
My never ending sadness
Is too deep inside my brain
The worst part is that
You will never understand
What's going on in my head
Everyone is like:
"You just need to try more"
"Smile more" "tell your parents"
"They know more"
Believe me I tried moving on
I tried thinking positive
"There are a lot of reason
why You should be appreciative"
No more inspirational quotes
No more trying
This pain is accumulating
And you know,
I'm dying.
