My Life (:

Chapter 1

Hey, so like I guess this is like a diary. This diary may tend to get boring, so if you don't like this story then leave and stop wasting your time on ready this story when you could be somewhere else reading a much better story than this one. You should also know that I tend to talk a lot and keep on going and going and then start talking about irrelevant things. I also thing my grammar and the way I use punctuation is also very bad ( lol ) Okay ! So where do I start ? Hmmm, oh yea let's learn about me ! Okay , so I am 12 years old, I am asian, I have glasses, I talk a lot, I am socially awkward most of the time, I am currently taken by my boyfriend, Johnathon, which is also asian, that was not necessary I think, I like somewhere in Texas, no I will not tell you my city, and I know I should have told you this earlier but my name is Natalia, and no I will not tell you my last name, thank you very much. My life is practically a whole lie, I am the world's biggest liar ( if you didn't know I am just over exaggerating ) My lies piled up is taller than the world's biggest building which is like what, in Dubai I think ? ( fun fact : I tend to say I think a lot because I am never really sure of anything )

Ok so lets start with today. Today was kind of like a normal day I guess. Just some depression things kicked in. Today I woke up , called Johnathon , went back to sleep , woke up again , did all of my chores , brushed my teeth , made breakfast for my sister and I , took a shower , Then snuck Johnathon into my house , yes I do sneak my boyfriend in my house. He was the one who came up with the idea and I stupidly agreed. I regret agreeing. I just feel like he just uses me for sex , I'm only 12 years old and I have already lost my virginity. That's just some , excuse my language , bullshit. Like every time Johnathon comes to my house , he always tries to take all of my clothes off and trie to have sex. He acts like some horny guy who is desperate to tell his friends that he has lost his virginity to some hot girl that is exactly 1 year younger than him. Yes we do have the same birthdays but that is irrelevant at this moment. I know , I know. I should break up with him , but I don't know why , but I still like him , his personality is ind of great but not everyone is perfect right ? Everyone just has to fix their mistakes. No one is and ever will be perfect right ?

Moving on to when he left , after that , when he got home , he called me as usual and like we didn't really talk. We call each other like 24/7. Literally 24/7 , like even when we sleep. We barely talk but like I understand , the world isn't even that interesting right ? I know some of you out there can agree. Like all most people do these days is stay home and go on their electronics , but I understand. Some people who stay home might just not be able to go anywhere because their parents are always busy working and making money to take care of their kids. That's my parents. I really want to go outside and explore the world , but like I don't have a ride and I am to young to get a drivers license. Okay sorry , back to where I was. So like we were calling each other for a while until like around 8:00pm.  His mom had called him for something and I guess he had bumped into something that was already broken ? His mom yelled what did he break and saw that he had something broken. She blamed it on him but he had actually didn't break it. It seemed that it was already broken before. He got mad and started yelling at his mom because he lost his temper , he lost so much of his temper and cussed at his mom , excuse my language again , bullshit. He ran to his phone , ended the call and then his mom came upstairs to talk to him ? He left me until 9:15pm. 

When he came back ,  he sounded like he had just stopped crying. I would've been like him if I was in his situation too so I understand him. Then he asked if I heard the conversation and I lied to him and said no. He then told me some of it , but he said he wasn't ready to tell me the rest.  I said I understand and we went back to our phones. Then he said he had to change his wallpapers which were photos of him and I and that he wanted a break from our relationship but he said that I am still his. I don't get it. What is the point of a break when I am still his girlfriend. Those words hit me really hard. It made me sad. It made me feel all alone. I texted one of my boy best friends about it and he helped me. Johnathon just added another thing to the jar of things he did to me that made me unhappy. 

Okay , so like once he let his ex , tie his hair into a ponytail right in front of me. Why would he even let her touch him ? Especially when I am there. Why ? He also had let her touch his butt while him and I were in a relationship. Then he had recently left me to call his ex so she could say one sentence , that is bullshit. Why would someone leave their girlfriend just to talk to his ex. It's just so messed up. I feel like I am just complaining , but I am not. Everyone is equal , yea I know that. Gentlemen should be more gentle when it comes to woman. Girls are very sensitive. Something guys should know is , small things matter. My childhood friend is like the best boyfriend you could ever have. He is kind , he takes care of his girlfriend well , and he sacrifices things for his girlfriend a lot to make her happy. I just never thought of him like that , but there need to be more people out there like him. 

Don't I sound like I am just comparing people. I think I just compare to much. I have high expectations. I'm just like that. I'm complicated. I have so many thoughts but I keep all of them inside. I bottle all of it up. I just burst out sometimes , but rarely. I think I just to much. I over think things. I'm sorry for being so boring. I know some of you out there can relate. Like I know for sure some people think this. I guess that is all for now. byee ~

A/N : I do not check over this so things may be misspelled and some things may not make sense.