Philophobia// jcj.

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Saturday May 12 - 11:45 am

"Katherine..?"

Katherine quickly gets off the boy and covers her body with her white covers,

"Jovani, uh what are you doing here?"

I look at Katherine, then turn to look at the boy she was just on top of, and back at Katherine. I hesitate to answer and run away, crying, leaving the stuff I got for her behind.

I quickly unlock my car and get it. Before I even insert the keys, I drop them and start crying, but harder this time. 

"No, no, no, no, no" I say as I punch the steering wheel 5 times. I run my fingers through my hair and continue to cry. After 20 minutes of crying, I start my car and head home. I was hoping for her to run out of her house to me and apologize for what happened. She never did.

I parked my car outside the garage and head to my front door. I walked into my house and ended up bumping into my mom.

"Oh Jovani you're ho-" she examined my face, " why are your eyes red and puffy?"

" ju-just a-allergies." I lie.

"Are you sure? That doesn't look like allergies to me." She says.

"Yes it is. Can I please go to my room now."

"Not until you tell me what really happened to you."

I don't say anything.

"Was it Katherine?" She asked and I started crying hard again.

"Ay Jovani. I'm sorry." She hugs me and rubs my back. "How about you go to your room and go freshen up, your dad's friend's family is coming over to eat dinner with us, if you want to join." She suggests.

"I don't know mom. I'll think about it." I fake a smile and head upstairs to my room. I open the door and my twin brother, Julian, jumps up his bed.

"Bro, you're finally back! I've been waiting for you to come to show you this awesome app Mario told me abo-" he stops talking. Oh no him too.                     " what happened to you?"

"Don't." I push him away and throw myself onto my bed.

"Fine." He says and he goes and stands by the window.

I then begin to hear " kill em with kindness" by Selena Gomez playing in slow motion.

I lift my head from my pillow and ask, "what are you doing?"

"A musical.ly" Julian answers.

"A music what?" I ask again. Is he even speaking English?

"Musical.ly. Mario told me about it. It's an app whew you record yourself lip syncing to a song and you post it. We should do one together." He suggests.

"no just leave me alone." I bury my face into my pillow again.

"Ok fine. I'll just leave then." I hear his footsteps getting quieter and quieter and then the door slams. I groan and I turn to face the ceiling. Why does this always happen to me? I thought to myself. I stare at the ceiling and so many flashbacks go though my mind. A lot of my relationship with Katherine before today. I was really happy with her and I loved her so much. But she clearly didn't feel the same way.

Then I slowly began to drift off to sleep.