You don't miss me. I don't even know what possessed me to think you do. You say you want to be friends, and then you won't even talk to me. I suppose this is how it was in the relationship too. I try, and you don't give a shit. You'd think by now that I'd be used to it, and get here I am fuming that I am nothing more than dirt under your feet. And why does it bug me so much? It shouldn't, yet it does. It makes me want to punch something, preferably you Because maybe then you would get to know how it feels to not matter to someone. I hate you doesn't even come close to defining what I feel for you my sweet. I wish I could zap you out of my life as easily as you zapped me out of yours, but since that capability doesn't belong to me I'll just sit and loathe some more. I want to hurt you like you hurt me. Because it is such bullshit that I never mattered to you as much as you mattered to me and I detest your entire being for making me think you did. I gave you everything I had to give, and you and your selfish little heart decided it wasn't enough. So ya know what sweetheart I am glad. I am ecstatic and jumping for joy that I got out of this with nothing but a few battle scars. Because you'll go and get a new girl and start the whole process over again, and I just pray that she realizes what a mistake she's making because you'll get bored of her just like you got bored of me. But that's not my issue its yours. I am a beautiful girl and there is no one out there like me or as good as me so it's your loss. Someday you'll look back on this and you'll realize just what you let go and finally all of the I told you so's will start making sense to your pea sized brain. And at that point, I'll be on to loving someone who loves me far more than you ever did. I'd like for you to get out of my life and never come back thanks, because at least then I don't have to listen to the "I still want to be friends" bullshit that you tell me daily. FRIENDS TALK. You won't say more than a how was your day. So that's it. I'm done trying to be your friend when you won't give up anything for me or anyone because the only persons who matters to you is you, and I guess I'm the fool for not seeing it in the first place.
