Have you guys ever gotten that really hollow feeling where you're not sad but not happy you just feel empty. Or like when you have this huge smile on your face acting like you're totally alright even though inside you feel like you're slowly wasting away or like you're gonna break down any minute and then you get home and you don't know why but the tears start pouring out and you can't stop and sometimes something or someone triggers or the time it's just like you can't hold it in anymore. Or when you Jura feel tired like physically your fine but mentally it's like a war in your head and you're fighting it and you can barely function but you still put on the mask every morning pretending you are as happy as could and the times when it gets so bad you consider sometimes for a second a minute maybe a little just ending it all and sometime we can't do it anymore and we lose the war but you fight through it even though you just wanna stop and you feel like you won't be missed no one cares about they never did never will you could get killed and people wouldn't even dwell on it for more than a month. I feel it all the time. I guess it's just life right.
