My little one perfect love.

oh my boy, i want to tell you something. Yes you've been in my mind every single second it's you, it's always been you. how i wish that i could be with you all the time. i love you i hope you know that. but i guess i need to hide this feeling forever because i don't want to lose you i fear that i might end up crying.

this is my story.. my name name is Jane 26 yrs old from Makati Philippines.

I had a crush in my campus, yes he's hot, nice, sweet, caring, loving and handsome. he's a type of every girl that dreming of. almost perfect. so i am very lucky to be one of his friend.. not just a friend, but i think a super bestfriend... he never makes me feel so special but i assumed that he loves me too. yes i'm assuming, that's my problem. so from that moment, i get jealous, he also get jealous, so i think we felt the same.. i tried to tell him once in a joke form of speech that i had a crushed on him. deep inside i thought it was the end .. but wwhooaaaa.. he accepted it. he said it's okay. then deep breathe tha k God he didn't reject me. so we continue.. he never courted me, i never ask him to court me. but we still show our love and care about each other.

until one day he gets really upset to me, yeah we argue over the phone, i said. why don't you tell me that you love me.? what is stopping you from telling me the truth? then he replied. nothing tou don't even understand even if i explain. i said i will. i swear i will understand. if you don't wanna tell me, the. stop fooling me around. i can't handle this anymore i think that you loved me but then you can't even tell me what are we supposed to be.

i can feel you but i want to be clear.. i just want to be clear that's all. why don't you understand that?

he said. okay i'm done i don't want to talk to you anymore. let's stop this.

and then i said.. that's it? after all of those?? you're going to throw me like garbage? how dare you do this to me?? why? don't leave me.

he said. just shut up.

then i said. please tell me (while crying on the phone)

he also crying and never said anything... we stop for a moment. then i said if you don't say anything i will shoot my self.

he said. shut up or i'll kill my self. he send a photo of him holding a knife pointing into his chest.

i said please stop that or i will come over your house..

he said just try and i will kill my self... i dare you..

and then i can't do anything all my anger turns into worried. yes i'm worried as hell.

the fear the tears the mind is blowing me up. my friend is going to kill himself.

so I stopped for a while..

later on i said, hey are you still there??

he said nothing but i can still hear his voice while crying..

i said please stop crying i am not worth crying i mean nothing to you...

he said. do you think i will cry this hard if you're not worth everything to me?

i said. then if so let's fix this mess. let's talk. first i don't want to lose you, i do 't want to argue with you. let's stop fighting please. let's just be happy. let's just be friends again. give me chance please.

he said. I have already forgiven you many times but you throw it away.

I said i will change my self plsss.

then we finally won the fight. we end up as friends again.

later on. i told him. let's go on the sea side. i want to walk together with you..

so we set a place where we meet, and then when he got there i've noticed his arm with wound. i said. what was that.? he said.. that was you. i did try to kill my self rather than suffering the pained if you leave me.

my heart breaks into pieces. i prove that he loves me a lot that he can give up his life if he lost me.

from that moment i said i'm sorry. and i love him tripple that before..

so we went in the sea side. we walk we talm we create happy memories.

i think that was the best feeling ever.. dawn comes and we watched the sunset. it was very romantic . i feel so in love with him..

we end the day full of love...

i will continue the next chapter. please comment, vote and share.

please be kind..