Oh I Might Just Try: An HU fanfic

Chapter 2

"You wanna talk now?" Charlie asked. We were sitting on the floor. The others were asleep, and it was only me and Charlie.

"What is there to talk about?" I asked, shrugging my shoulders. Charlie was the closest thing I had to a brother since Deuce left. Don't get me wrong, I thought of all of the guys as brothers, I really did, but I had known Charlie longer than any of them.

"Come on, Zoe. There has to be SOME reason." He replied. I sighed and lay down on my back, careful not to accidentally elbow one of the guys in the face.

"C'mon, Zoe. Please tell me what happened?" He asked. He sounded really upset, and it hurt. I hated when my friends were upset. It made me feel like a failed friend.

"But you are a failed friend." The voice in my head confirmed. "No, shut the fuck up." I silently responded. "Why? It's true, isn't it?" It asked. I sat up and put my hands against my head, my legs against my chest, and tried to make it stop.

"Zoe," Charlie asked, "Are you okay?" I started rocking back and forth in response, not caring if I woke someone up. I felt Charlie put his arms around my shoulder as I squeezed my eyes shut, tears threatening to spill.

"Shush, it's okay, Zoe." He whispered. I tried to stay quiet so the others wouldn't hear me, but I let out a sob and they heard me. The next thing I knew, the guys were all by my side and asking me what was wrong.

We stayed like that for a few minutes until I finally calmed down. I opened my eyes to see everyone crowded around me, worried looks on their faces. I hadn't had a panic attack like that for a few years, and the fact that it was back scared me.

"Zoe? What happened?" Danny asked. I wiped my eyes with the sleeve of my shirt before I began.

"Before I ran into you guys, my mom and I had another fight. She told me... She told me that it was my fault my dad ran off, that if I wasn't born h-he would still be h-here. She told me that I'm a failure and..." I couldn't continue. I knew if I did, they would get even more worried and want to get back at her.

"And what? What happened then?" Da Kurlzz asked. "Sh-she s-said that I deserved to die." I broke down in Charlie's arms, and he held me close. I opened my eyes a little bit and saw Johnny standing up, running his hands through his hair. Danny's hand was over his mouth, tears in his eyes, and Funny Man, JDog, and Da Kurlzz were actually crying.

I looked up at Charlie. He wasn't looking at me. I could tell from the expression on his face that he was pissed off and wanted to do something. I know he wouldn't if I told him not to, but it still scared me.

"You know it isn't true, right?" Johnny asked, his voice cracking. I looked up at him. He was standing next to the window, looking at me. "What isn't true?" I asked, confused.

"You don't deserve to die. Those are fucking lies, all of those things she said, they aren't true." Charlie said, finally looking at me. I shrugged and wiped my eyes, yawning. I stayed like in his arms and felt a bit of security as I felt darkness envelope me.