I Dont Think I'll Ever Be Okay (Frerard)

Chapter 1: Why am I like this

~ Franks pov~

It was a gorgeous Sunday afternoon, I was sat on the floor of my living room in my apartment that sat on the outskirts of New Jersey. I was, at the time, listening to music and reading a comic book two of the things I loved doing. I heard a loud knock at the door. I quickly jumped up and ran to the door. I opened the door to reveal a thin tallish man with bright red long hair. It was Gerard.

I smiled up at him. "Hey what are you doing here man?" I ask not expecting him to just show up, it really wasnt like him.

He smiled back at me and gave me a hug before walking in. "I thought I'd visit you here in Jersey before we go on tour in like two months." He laughed a little before sitting down at one of the tall chairs at my breakfast bar.

"Oh, okay, cool. Do you want something to eat, I was just about to make dinner." I offered.

"Um, sure I would love some what are you having?" He asked swiveling the chair back and forth.

"I could order some pizza or something?" I offered.

"Yea that sounds awesome!" He smiled, wow his smile was so beautiful. Correction he was so beautiful, he didn't even have to try and he was perfect... But he would never like me the way I liked him, he had told me himself he was straight.

I walked over to my phone and ordered the pizza. I had finished ordering and hung up the phone and turned around to find Gerard wandering around looking at my apartment, he hadn't been here in a long time and I had changed a few things. He ran his slender fingers over my record player which I hardly ever used. Then he wandered over to my radio which had been playing some Blink 182, he ran his finger over the slik black radio and turned it off.

I wandered towards him. "Why did you do that?" I asked puzzled.

He tured on his heels and faced me with a big gorgeous smile. "I thought we'd watch a movie together or something." God, he was gorgeous, all i wanted was to feel his arms around me and feel his lips against mine. Like that was ever going to happen. God, why am I like this? Why do I have to be gay? And why did I have to fall in love with someone who would never love me back?

I snapped out of my fixation and nodded. "Um, yea that seems like an amazing idea."

"You ok man? You seem a little distracted today. Did I come at a bad time?" He asked disappointed.

I shook my head quickly. "No no, I'm fine. Like you said I'm just a little destracted thats all. Now what movie do you want to watch." I had a bad habit of changing the subject when I got nervous and Gerard know that but he must have let it slid because he said nothing of it.

"How about The Avengers?" He asked smiling wide.

"Yea, that sounds good." I smiled and went to go set it up on my TV.
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A/N
So thats the end of my first chapter of my first story on WatPad! This is going to be fun! I hope you all like it so far and just so you know the story is set in present day as if they had never broken up because I'm lazy and dont want to figure out the movies and stuff for them to watch that where out before they broke up... I write the next chapter tomorrow, hopefully! I hope you enjoy! K thx bye! ~(^×^~)