This is to all my friends and I mean allll my friends that are reading this .
I hide behind a mask you may not see it but I do.
Some of my friends can make me laugh for real and other times I laugh to hide behind the jokes or to to join in the crowd to blend in.
I have true friends and then i have just friends.
My true friends try to see the best in me and know when I am hiding behind my feelings also they try to cheer me up ( I have only 2 or 3 true friends ). Then there are my friends that are friends and they only see the little thing in me and only the little things.
But this mask I made is more like a wall where know no one can see me im trapped with in my self. I know it sounds weird and all over the place. But just listen to me.
I made this wall to mack sure I would never get let my gard down. But ones I did I let someone in my life and that was a big mistake and I0 ended up geting hurt. Thats only one reason I built this wall up.
But whay I am righting this is because I wont more people to understand me. But I know only a couple of people will read this.
But I try to be myself with me friends but its hard for me to be myself around alot of my friends.
From Olivia
