Phan oneshots

A Good 50 Years

(everything in italics is the past, TW// major character death and references to suicide attempt)

Dan looked over at Phil and held out his hand, the sound of beeping filled the room. Normally a constant beeping noise would drive you made and make you go crazy trying to find it and trying to stop it but in this case it was reassuring and if that beeping stopped Dan would probably break down in tears, he hoped and prayed that that beeping would never stop...

Phil smiled at him and wiped the tears from Dan's eyes,
"It...it has been...a great 50 years" He choked out and it warmed Dan's heart a little.
"Do you remember how we met?" Phil asked, he found it so hard to speak but he kept trying and trying until the words came out, Dan nodded,
"How could I forget?" He smiles, closing his eyes.

It hadn't been the best day ever for Dan, he had another argument with his parents about him dropping out of university and not having a job yet, he was choked with the cold and he had managed to smash his phone screen on some bloody carpet, carpet? Out of anything it was carpet that had ruined his life. So he decided to take a breather and walk down to the flower shop just down the road as it was his friend, Carries, mum that owned it and just being surrounded by them helped him calm down and he was even allowed to help sometimes which made him feel like he had some sort of purpose in life, he always wanted to buy one but it would probably die under his care and that just wasn't okay. He walked in the bell ringing above his head,
"Mrs Fletcher? Hi it's just Dan?" He said and walked through the shop to the counter to see a boy,
"Um, Hi, hello?" He asked and the boy gasped and looked up from his book,
"Oh god I'm so sorry, I got lost in my book, it's been so quiet today, I decided to read" He said and looked up at me, I had never seen him before but he had these massive friendly blue eyes that made me feel at the knees.
"I,Um, Don't mean to be rude but who are you?" He asked and the boy laughed a little and pointed at his name tag.
"Phil, I work here now, Carries cousin?" He said and looked at me to see if the cousin thing would maybe prompt my memory.
"Oh yeah, I think Carrie talked about her cousin moving here," He nodded, "Sorry, I sometimes come in here to like look around and chill out," Dan said and Phil nodded, "Fine with me," He shrugged before Dan sat next to one of the plants watering it, if only he knew how important that day would mean to him forever.

Dan let out a breath and leaned closer to his husband, he still had those amazing eyes even though the skin around them were sagging. He kissed his hand,
"I should have known from that moment that I was going to spend forever with you," He whisper and Phil smiled, "But it wasn't that moment that brought us close..." He mumbled and coughed loudly, before clearing his throat. Dan shook his head.
"What happened Dad?" Their daughter asked, she was sat next to them, her heart was slowly breaking for her dying Papa and her crying Dan, she put her hand on Dan's shoulder and Dan put his spare hand on top of hers, "Well..."

Dan sat on the bridge swinging his legs, looking down at the water that was flowing fast beneath him, battering against all the rocks. He held his breath and inhaled the smell of the flowing water. He then looked to his left and picked up the bottle of vodka and took a massive gulp before picking up his phone and putting on his favourite song as he wanted that to be the last song he ever heard.
"here comes the sun, do do do do,
here comes the sun
and I say
It's all right,"
The tears began to roll down Dan's face as he finished the bottle, he screamed and threw it into the water, hearing the loud smash, he curled up, that nagging voice in his head, 'just do it, you have no reason to live, everyone hates you, just jump' He sniffed and wiped his tears, getting to his feet and opening his arms out and...
"STOP!" He heard someone scream and he turned around, groaning, he was so close.
"Who is that?" The boy asked and Dan recognised the voice, the boy stepped into the light and it was Phil, Phil from the flower shop, Phil with the massive warming eyes. I let out a breath and took a step back.
"Don't move any closer!" Dan screamed back as tears rolled down his cheek.
"Dan, please you have so much to live for please," Phil begged, getting panicky himself, he didn't know Dan very well at all but he didn't want him to die!