Whenever I think of myself, I think of a great looking young adult with the whole world in the palm of his hand. No, I was kidding, Honestly when look deep down inside myself I see a broken man walking down a never ending dim lit path. Decrepit trees lining the sides of the path, a murky swamp in the distance. Just a life of endless despair, caused from the many people who abandoned me along the way.
Every little glimmer of sun that shines through the darkness vanishes as dark clouds fill the sky. Whats at the end? I'm not sure, But what I do know is that it is getting darker as the path starts to dissipate. Whats left is confusion and darkness while I wonder around in circles trying to find some indication that things are getting better. As I stop in my tracks to look around to see where I am, I see a dark figure starting to walk away from me. I follow it questioning myself "What the hell am I doing?" but something...compels me to try to figure out what that figure is in the near distance. It seems to almost dart around like it's trying to show me something and will have something happen to it if it gets caught.
While I am trying to look ahead to see where its taking me I see something familiar, something that I feel that i have seen before. I come to the edge of the forest and stand there motionless as I watch what is before me. I see myself, in a casket lying before me. The wind whistles as I notice my old friends, ones who I have not seen since I was younger. One of my friends Kim gets up on the podium, you can see the tears running down her face. She manages to muffle her crying into words. "Garrett, why did it have to come to this. I wanted to meet you but, not in this way. I met you on a game so long ago..you were so full of life. You helped anyone and everyone no matter how it made you feel. Through those 10 years of knowing you, we have grown up together, taught each other so much, and formed an unbreakable bond. Whenever I was feeling down or suicidal, I would think of you, and immediately I felt better..but now your gone and will be forever in my heart." I suddenly feel my heart drop as tears drain from my eyes. The vision begins to fade as I start to come back into reality from delving deep into myself.
