My supposed "best friend" since birth. My number one go to and person to count on. My "everything"? Yeah okay. I have known Alexa Marie Olejar since I was a baby. Our moms are really good friends and I always thought we would always be close friends for life. We have so many memories. Good, bad, weird, embarrassing, sad, traumatizing, spectacular, almost any kind of memory you can imagine we've experienced. Over the years we've both grown and changed a lot but we always stayed by one another's side. We've had horrible fights. Ones where I've cried, ones where I made her cry, but we go back to each other all the time. And over the past 2 years, shit really started to change. My once sweet, cute, innocent, vivacious and crazy happy best friend under went a major personality change. But I still loved her despite all the verbal and physical abuse I've taken from her where she's stripped away all my self esteem and self worth and she's harassed me (she claims she was kidding when I confront her about it). I took it all. I dealed with all of her shit for so long and I'm basically a prisoner to her. I don't know I've been around her so long I can't think of being without her and it's like she's the nicotine in my life. I try to give her respect but I rarely get it back. And I've come to a point where I realised maybe we'll rekindle our broken friendship soon. But I know we won't be friends forever because we're two totally different people with different goals in life and different interests and very different personalities. I just want my old Heather who we were happy with each other 24/7 and we had no problems. I just want that but I know I'm never going to get that.
