Long Way Down

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Niall: How could you stand in front of Niall now, after you both gave up so easily on a love that could have been amazing? It made your heart ache as much as it did his. Years had passed since the last time you laid eyes on each other, but the pain of saying goodbye was still just as strong. "Still hard to believe we didn't make it," Niall finally said, after minutes of awkward silence. Neither of you truly knew what to say, so he was just going to say the first thoughts that popped into his mind. "Yeah, we uh. I guess we tried." Niall was not so sure you truly did, "Did we? It feels like we just made a fire then went down in flames. We sailed the ocean and drowned in the waves." Your heart ached over the words he was saying. "I feel like we tried for a short time, and then just let it crash. We just built a cathedral, but we never prayed." He let out a sigh, disappointment evident in it, "We had it all, and we walked away." Did he really believe you never tried? You felt like you did. Not for long, but you thought you had tried, and it just wasn't enough. You stood there in stunned silence for a while, before finding your own words. "I didn't know you even felt this way. I always thought we did try. I really did. I'm sorry."

Harry: Sleeping with someone else while Harry was away on tour, was the biggest regret of your life. It was one horrible mistake. One night you couldn't take back no matter how badly you wanted to. Tears rolled down your face, as you tried for the millionth time to apologize to Harry for what you'd done. "I'm so sorry Harry. I just. I was lonely, and I... I told you the truth right away though. I didn't hide it from you." Your sadness pained Harry, but not enough to move on from what you'd done. "I think we've reached the point of no returning now. It's just too late to turn around. I try to forgive you, but I struggle cause I don't know how." Your heart shattered, realizing he would never forgive you for the night you'd spent with another. You couldn't blame him, but it hurt so badly. It had been such an amazing love you shared. "And don't think this is easy for me, or doesn't hurt me terribly," Harry said, as he tried to control his own emotions, "Because this is harder on me than you will ever know. I just can't forgive you. i want to, but I can't. I'm sorry [Y/N]. I can't be with you, not knowing I would always worry that you would do it again." "I would never," you cried. "I believe that, but I still just can't fully trust you anymore. And why be with someone you can't even trust?"

Louis: Years and years after you and Louis called it quits, it was not a horrible thing to run into each other again. You could now smile at each other and laugh at the others jokes. It was not the horrible event it had once been. It was because of this comfortableness that Louis felt okay saying the words he was now saying. Words he never would have said right after that break up. "I sometimes think back to us, and it's so strange to think how it all happened. It was pretty amazing, you know? And we didn't see that at all. We had a mountain you know, but took it for granted." You laughed at his choice of words. You really were so okay with each other now, these words didn't bother you. "A mountain?" "Yeah, and we also had a spaceship, but we couldn't land it." More laughter fell from your lips. If there was one thing your ex could always do, it was make you laugh. He loved your laughter, and wanted to hear it just a little more, "I also feel like we found an island, but we got stranded." You took a few moments to control your voice enough to speak over your laughter, "We had it all, who could've planned it?" Louis just stood there with a huge smile on his face, as he replied, "We clearly didn't. We had no idea what we were doing."

Liam: "We built it up so high and now I'm falling. It's a long way down," Liam told you, when you asked how he'd been since your split. He could have faked a smile, and told you he was okay. He didn't though. He was honest with his words. He wanted you to know he was still hurting, and a long way from being over the collapse of what he once thought was so strong. 3 years together, and you had suddenly walked away. It was hard for him to pretend he was okay, when he was not okay at all. "We should have stopped long before we did," you replied, hating that those were the words that came to your mind. Not 'I'm sorry, let's fix it' but 'we should have ended things sooner.' You just knew very well that this relationship was never meant to last, and you knew it long before saying goodbye. If you had broken things off before you did, Liam wouldn't be so hurt now. You felt horrible for that fact. "I never wanted you to be hurt Liam. I'm sorry. It's my fault you kept thinking things were so great. I knew they weren't, and I said nothing. You're now falling, because I never told you that i didn't feel like we were flying like you did."

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