Attached to you...

About me...

Now you  probably wondering who I am?
I am a girl who lives in my own world,I'm an ordinary girl who chases my dreams.I'm a teenager,I don't care what some people talk about me,I'm living my life.
It is not easy to write how you really feel...
I simply don't fit to the fucking ram!When I'm laughing,I'm laughing with everyone,but when I'm crying,I'm crying alone.I'm not like other girls.I'm don't care about what I'm wearing or how I'm looking.
You must now be wondering why I'm writing this at all.Things stand like this.
Have you ever wondered on the way deep inside you,what's happening,where is this going?
You don't know my name but you know my story.
Recently I finished primary school.In September I go to high school.I go to school that I dreamed.Did I mention that I love to draw and paint,well if I'm not now you know.I'm going to school for artists.
There is also a guy who's been stealing my smiles when I see him.I don't have the courage to tell him what I feel 'cause I'm afraid of his reaction.You know how are boys,they don't have enough courage.
They just acting heroes just to impress girls.
I have my slogan:"Hang out with everyone,be friend with everyone,but don't trust anyone".
When I was little instead of toys, dolls, balls I had fun with brushes,papers,paints and pencils.Thus developed my love of art.I was always interested in something else.Since my third year I lived in an old house of a church with my mom.She tried to give me everything that other children have.I don't live with my father 'cause he has other family they don't like me.But I don't pay attention to that.Since my third year we moved in a house that was much bigger and  more beautiful,in that place I meet my first friend.I will not now talking about her because she isn't important to me anymore.So,I live ten years in that end than we again moved and we will no longer have to move.I'm not like other girls I will say that  thousand times more.
I'm different because my  eyes have own vocabulary,beautiful language to learn.I'm darkness,sometimes depressed,I'm "strange",I'm different from all,the definition of a person who is eager attention.
I've learned that people will forget what you said,people will forget what you've done but they will never forget how they felt because of you already.
I'm not falling in love in typical guys.In those who are pumped up,beautiful,for whom all the girls are crazy.It's funny how I can fall in love in movement,scuttle with foot,when he is nervous,unconsciously nibble nails,when he's trying to concentrate on something.I'm fall in love in the guy and the way how he enjoys in the music and the passion in the eyes when he speaking of things that she admires...In jerk of lips,indication that he didn't want to laugh but he still laughing...or uncontrolled laugh.In statements that only I understand.I'm fall in love in a long look in the eye,voice,literacy,palms,childish smile,in the way he talk,the way he oppose to me,the way we oppose...I fall in love with something that others don't see...
You wondering who is that gay.Who's stealing my smiles.He's name is Mark.

Sometimes we went out to the cinema and our friends would be joking .Sometimes we went out for  a walk,just we,we laughed.We have a lot in common.We were together at graduation.We danced together,we took pictures and  that was one of the most beautiful night throughout schooling.In his arms and light song.Previous me his company ,somehow known to me listening.Strange to behave when I'm in the vicinity.I get weak in the knees when I see him.My heart beats stronger when I'm in his company.I wish I can have courage in the face to look at him and can tell him what I feel but I don't.
In exactly eight days is my fifteenth birthday.
I regret  people who silence see it as boredom,silence is beautiful only if you understand her.
I don't know anymore.I'm afraid of life,growing up,high school.
What next will happen? 
I would peek into the future.Then I knew that the fault should be to correct.I have cabbage like other teenagers,but these are only small cabbage,which are for me the whole world.
I also have a cat,who likes to sleep and eat a lot fish.
Talent for painting and drawing inherited it from my grandfather who died two years ago.He liked to paint, draw, write,he was a civil engineer.I have two aunts and an uncle.My mother's oldest sister has three children.Two daughters and a son.Her oldest daughter has a daughter.Complicated isn't it and her younger daughter is getting married in October,I decorate her wedding.My mother's youngest sister also has three children,mother's brother also has three children.Everyone in the family has three children but my mother has only me,I love that.
I have a few friends, some crazy, some romantic and some valuable.
Let's say Milica she's a smart,crazy for Selena Gomez, Tyler Sweet, One Direction and many others.
Megy  she is two-faced,chasing boys,thinks that she is someone but she isn't,she is easy girl,falls in love with every other guy.
Alen is thick sweet teddy bear,constantly laughing and Milica also.He is a silly.He likes to hang out with everyone.
Vanja she's a girl with magical eyes,she likes party,she also like art like me.
Irena for her there are no words that can describe,she is known for Russian language.she is firs in Russian language,she have a lot of animals I like that.
In a way, it is interesting.Because you will reading and you reading part of my life....