Is It True? Is He Alive? Mackenzie O'Brien X Marco Bott

Losing My One And Only, My Love, And My Boyfriend

A/N Ok quick Author's note. You see this will mess with your feels but get over it you have been warned read at your own risk of tears and loss of feels. Good bye I have nothing else to say bye~}
Mackenzie or Lula_Mack

Story Time~

Mackenzie's POV

I ride my horse to where Jean and Marco were before we got separated. I ride up to see Jean on his knees holding someone or something. I stopped my horse with tears in my eyes. "J-Jean stop joking this isn't funny." I say tears starting to fall as I jump off my horse. I look at what Jean is holding and I cry out and fall to me knees. "N-no this isn't true this is a dream! Please Jean this isn't real. Please tell me this isn't real." I cry for the first time Jean looks at me with tears of his own. "Kenzie I wish I could." Jean says moving over and hugging me. "I see Marco slowing fading from view. "M-Marco d-don't go please don't go." I cry seeing my boyfriend fade from my view. "MARCO!" I scream jumping on my horse. (No not Jean ok sorry about that I don't want to insult him. Even thought I want to. I will do it later I promise that) "Kenzie?" Jean asks. "hmm?" I ask looking at him tears streaming down both of our faces. "I lost my horse can you give me a ride back?" He asks I nod and he gets on. We ride back to HQ. "Hey O'Brian where's your boyfriend?" someone asks with that the tears start coming. "Really Jaeger you had to bring him up didn't you?" Jean asks hugging me. "Yeah I did because well where is he." Eren asks. "G-gone." I choke out. "What do you mean gone?" Eren pokes and prods. "I mean he is where you will end up if you don't shut you damn mouth!" I yell making everyone's head turn to Eren. "Oh is that so." He says smugly. "If you don't shut the fuck up then you will be ending up dead. Got that because the next time you bring up Marco Lord so help me you will wish you would have never been born." I say coming closer to him with a mad look on my face. I back up walking out the door. "Jaeger look what you did you can't go five seconds without making someone pissed at you. You know Marco died and you still bring it up. And you say I am rude. That is low and cold Jaeger next time do us all a favor and keep your mouth shut someone has to hear you being rude." I hear Jean say from where I am sitting which is the steps. The door swings open and I feel Jean sit next to me. "Thanks Jean." I say hugging him. "Hey you got to do what you got to do to step up for a friend and sister." He says returning the hug. "This may be awkward but can I sleep with you Jean?" I ask seeing the blushing face of Jean. "W-why?" He asks. "I mean in Marco's bed. But because I can't sleep alone. I don't think I can." I say looking at him with pleading eyes. "Of course I don't think I could either to be honest." Jean says smiling through his tears. We get up and make our way to Jean and Marco's dorm. "Marco's bed is over there." Jean says pointing to the bed across the room. "Ok." I say simply walking over to where he pointed. I put on one of Marco's old shirts. (Don't judge me I miss him ok. Gosh you readers are rude. Ok back to the story XD) I crawl into what was my boyfriend's bed and fall asleep. I start to mumble in my sleep. "N-no p-please don't go." is one of them. "MARCO!" I scream shooting up in bed scaring Jean half to death making him fall out of his bed. "Oww Kenzie can you not scream." Jean says from the floor. "Sorry Jean just had a nightmare of reality." I say laying back down. "Are you sure you want to sleep alone?" Jean asks getting in his own bed. "I mean I am trying but am failing miserably." I say looking at the ceiling. "You know you can sleep with me. I am fine with it." He says I get out of Marco's bed and lay down in Jean's falling asleep next to him. (No I don't like Jean I mean he is like my brother but no I don't have a crush on him or something. XD) He puts his arm around me pulling me into a hug not being a pervert. (I swear don't think I like this. I don't but Marco is gone and so this is a good replacement for now. Ok that sounded bad, opps. XD) I wake up and see Jean sleeping. I poke his forehead. "Wake up sleepy head." I say poking him again but this time in the nose. "I'm up." He says sleepily. "No your not." I say poking his nose again. "Stop poking me." He says getting up out of my reach. "No fair you're taller than me." I pout. "Yeah but nevermind." He says cutting himself off. "Can we get breakfast I'm hungry." I whine putting on my uniform. "Yeah let's go." He says I rub the sleep from my eyes. We walk into the mess hall and everyone looks at us. "Jean I am scared." I whisper. "Don't be." He says pulling me close. "Being a bit forward. Eh horse face." It is Eren. "Shut up Jaeger." Jean growls. "Eren what did Jean say about keeping your mouth shut? I thought he made it pretty clear." I say coldly glaring daggers at him. "Jaeger, Kirstein, O'Brian in my office now." Captain Levi say shutting us up as we follow him to his office. We all walk into his office sitting on the couch in his office. (It's a chair I know but how do you expect three people in one chair I mean come on XD) "What is this about?" Levi says with is famous not emotionless face. "N-nothing sir." I say on the verge of tears. "Don't lie Brat." Levi says anger laced in his words. "What Kenzie meant to say is. Jaeger here thought it was a good idea to make Mackenzie feel bad by asking where Marco was." Jean says by the time he finishes his sentence I am crying no sobbing is a better word. "Kenzie it is ok." Jean says hugging me. "Jaeger is this true?" Levi asks turning his attention to Eren. "In a way." Eren says shrugging. "What do you mean in a way." I say clearly angry. "I mean I thought I would ask you looked sad and I wanted to know. I didn't know t would hurt you so much. I thought he was just in his dorm." Eren says getting angry as well. "So you didn't want to hurt me. Everyone in that damn hall could see I was hurt. But you are clearly blind if you couldn't see the look on my face." I say enraged. "Kenzie calm down." Jean says calmly. "Oh so take his side will you." I yell storming out of the office. I run to the library and fall in the back corner where I go when I want to be alone. (What's wrong with the library. I think it is an awesome way to be alone. Which for me in real life is a lot. Sad yes I know.) I just sit there writing in my diary. (Yes I have a diary because I write in it every often after getting bullied for being deaf. What's wrong with being different? Why do people hate me because I am different? Ok waaaaay off topic back to the story XD)

Ok ending it here sorry about that but I just am tired and can't think I may update this soon by soon I mean later tonight. Because it is 12:33 in the morning when I wrote this author's note so I am tired and going to update soon and real soon. Bye~
~Mackenzie