MiniZerk

What Is Wrong With Me?

It was late afternoon; Josh, Simon, Ethan and Vikk were recording GTA V. (Josh's POV-let me know if you want Simon's POV later in the book or nah.) :).

I was in the lead, Simon behind and it was the last lap.
"Noo I'm not letting Josh win again!" Simon said, I laughed but I felt a little sad that he didn't want me to win. No I'm being childish shut up. Of course he would want to win. Who wouldn't?
"Let's take him out!" Ethan shouted, Ethan obviously has a massive crush on Simon, yet Simon seems so oblivious to it. It's somewhat infuriating.
"Yes! C'mon Ethan." Simon replies,
"Naah, we cool?" I try to reason with Simon, but Ethan interrupts;
"The power of EMON!" He shouts as him and Simon fire at me, both hit and I quickly respawn, I'm so far last ugh. Ethan laughs uncontrollably.
"Take that!" Simon mocks,
"EMOOON!" Ethan cheers.
"Mad." Vikk simply states. I fake laugh,
"Emon's real." I laugh, It hurt though. I don't understand why, but Simon is not for Ethan, and it made me upset...
"Yeah. Emon for da win!" Simon jokes. It hurts even more when Simon admits to it, yet Simon would never be involved with Ethan in that way... Would he? Oh shut up, what is it to you.
"Ugh Ethan push me up the ramp." Simon says,
"I will happily push you from behind." Ethan laughs,
"Oi this is maad." Vikk laughs.
"The bants!" I squeeze out, fake laughing. My heart felt like a rock.

We soon finished recording and I decided to go get something to eat. I wondered out of my room and plodded down the stairs.
Why does 'Emon' make me so angry and upset? What is wrong with me? I'm not a homophobe, I have nothing against them being gay, yet it still annoys me.
"You okay?" I hear a voice ask, the voice belonged to Simon.
"Um yeah fine." I reply stuttering. If only he knew some of the things that went on in my head... I sat on the counter and looked at my feet.
"Are you sure? You don't sound too sure." Simon says, plonking down next to me. His hand was milimeters away from mine, my breath hitched slightly.
"Um yeah, I promise." I say,
"Hmm okay." He said, not sounding too convinced, "Hey, me and Ethan were planning on filming a QnA together at some point, maybe you could join in too?" he suggested. 'Me and Ethan'. That phrase stuck in my head like unwanted gum on the underside of a table.
"Sure, when will that be?" I replied,
"Tomorrow or the day after, whenever Ethan can come over." Simon yawned.
"Okay sounds good." I say. Ugh shut up about Ethan already, I want to tell him.
"Are you SURE you're okay? You look a little... distracted?" Simon asked again,
"I'm sure." I lied. He narrowed his eyes at me before saying,
"Well I'm off to bed, see ya."
"Goodnight." I reply. I kind of wanted to touch him, not in a weird way... like just as reasurrance. Like a hug or.. a kiss or something. But I'm not gay, I guess I just feel I need to express my friend love for him. Ew that's so slushy. Ugh what is wrong with me...

Chapter 1... I hope you liked this. I'm excited to see where this goes! Message me ideas and things that could happen later on in the story. Also, should the book be entirely from Josh's POV? Or Simon as well???
Thanks for reading :).
Aaand seeya🌻