A Part Of My World//Taj

Alone.

I feel like I'm trapped inside of a box and I can't get out. Emptiness taking over, suffocating me. No one understands me. They pin themselves against me, victimizing themselves while I'm made out to be the bad guy.

"Dumb."

"Stupid."
"Fat."

Those words break upon me like rusted chains, leaving me with bad thoughts. Sometimes I think, "Why not just end it ?" "No one cares. No one would miss me."

The ones I look upon the most, the ones who say they love me and do care-only say it for show. They don't mean it. They paint the world a "perfect " picture but little does the world know that it's only gray clouds, and black and white.

They say the grass is always greener on the other side where you water it--they lied about that. On the other side of that fresh everglade is ruins of depression. Cold, dark, complacent and constant fears.