Three years too long.

Written by: caelilene

Read by: Kat Swift

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Three years...

Abruptly coming to a stop.

it was just so sudden...

one minute his smile gave me goose bumps and the next....his words broke me.

I had given him everything,three years of my patience and understanding and love. Three years- of all that i had.

There are so many memories that had been burned into my mind ,so many times his eyes filled with a passion you could only dream of. This was the man i called my better half, the one that knew me better than i knew myself-

But it wasn't good enough-

i wasn't good enough-

i wasn't good enough for him-

what chance did i have when my best wasn't the best for the man that i loved?

how could i possibly regain myself when i had given him all that i had?

to hear those words-

The words that shatter your fantasy into one thousand pieces...

The words that say you should not have ever been-

The words that say he will not do this again-

That it was all just

Not enough.

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You make a decision.

Never again. I will disappear and make him miss what he left....

but then-

you get a call-

you hear his laugh and you catch yourself smiling...

Then back comes the pain, renewed from the presence of his laughter ringing in your mind.

memories flood.

I'm drowning.

I cant breathe.

Why did he have to let it all go?

Why did he have to forget me?

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Wasn't it good enough?

Wasn't I good enough?

Wasn't I good enough for him?