Wanting to cry but not being able to. Having to go to school keeping a smile and acting so damn happy so no questions are asked. So people think everything is fine.
Mom blaming you for everything. Dad not ever being there when you need him. Him not being able to keep a job.Making your mom stressed out and you being blame for it. Little brother hitting you but you won't hit back because it'll just be another fucking thing that'll end up to be your fault nor wanting to hurt him and regret it later. Not telling his (your) parents that he leaves bruises which turn green even just so they won't yelled at you for it bc like always it's your fault. Then they still figure it out and yells at you either way for not speaking up. Brother yelling saying how hed rather want you dead, out the house, and telling you go to war and die. Saying how stupid you are. Not saying anything back even though you really want to.
Then there's school. Your ex left you bc he wanted sex from you but you didn't want to lose your vcard yet. But of course he'd rather say some other stupid reason to dumping you. You regret ever dating him. He got what he wanted well some of it and left like he said he would never. He's now dating some girl. At least you didn't lose it just bc fear of being called a slut and whore.... No not fear of being called one actually becoming one... Just another fucking slut in the damn school. But either way he got what he wanted from some other chick. Now it's just hurtness, anger and regret that follows. You have 2 classes with him so you can't not see him everyday. Nightmares of him doing certain Shit follow you in your sleep. Getting restless sleep each night when you do get sleep. Fearing falling asleep. Wanting everything to go away.
