Things

The Voices

I guess you have to wait. I hate waiting...feeling like you aren't going to get what you really so desperately need. Time...they all say time, give it time. I have no time, time is slipping away. I can't talk about this to anyone because I keep asking when...when...why won't this happen. If I keep talking I'll end up breaking myself. I think I already have. I hate this feeling, this feeling of constant oblivion. Oblivious to everything. How people feel. Whether I am doing things right. Whether everything will be okay. I don't know I guess not. Maybe, possibly, yes. Who knows, everything I try never works. I am to scared. To scared to talk, look, feel. To scared to do anything. To scared to let my true colors and feelings out for I know I won't be accepted. Maybe this one will accept me. No it's to good to be true. Nobody accepts or cares. That's not true the voices inside my head say. They care, what do you mean they, someone they say. I push those thoughts in the back of my mind and burn them. Your not telling the truth I scream. I sit in the dark corner and let the madness and the voices take over. It won't ever happen. Never...time is the essence they say. Wait, be patient. I can barely hear their words. I'll listen this once. But I can tell you I'm breaking inside....a lot....and i'm sorry.

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Like I said it's a bit random. But this is something I feel I guess. I don't know anymore. Bye.