I'm half-demon and I don't like it

Chapter 1

Hello everybody and welcome inside my mind. I'm Adeline Rooning I know, it's a beautiful name, and I'm 16. My life's a lonely mess. My father ran away with his secretary when I was 10, a classic. I can't still believe that it's real, c'mon that's a story for a movie not for a child. My mother's an alcoholic. She drinks at least five bottles of beer in a day. She's always angry and she starts shouting when I ask her what she wants to eat for dinner, that obviously I cook. Sometimes I see her taking a syringe out from a drawer. Of course I know what it is, but the police keep saying that there aren't any traces of drugs. I don't know if I can believe this or not. Beside that, I'm pretty good at school. Even if I don't know if I'm gonna go to University, considering that my mum spends all her money in alcohol, and I don't wanna end up like her. All my grades are A or B but, recently I'm a little distracted. Now you should know this, I've got my way for being distracted. The majority of the people keep staring at their teachers and sometimes they nod, like if they're listening. I'm nothing like that. I open my eyes, like if I'm in trance, and I start expelling saliva from my mouth. I don't know how but my teachers always notice me. I don't think that's a point for my reputation.

I'm quite sure that if inside my mind there is someone, well maybe that someone is thinking right now why I am speaking, or thinking, to myself. Here's the answer to all your questions. It was an idea of my English teacher, he said that repeating in my mind what I see, like if I'm talking to an audience, will help me with my distraction problem. I wanted to be nice with "the audience" so I started telling you my whole life, even if I don't know how it could be interesting in any ways. I let weeks passing without using this method. I'm not that popular at school, I don't have any friends and bullies every time make fun of me. If someone's gonna find out that I "think to myself" I'll be ruined for the rest of my life. But when Nathan asked me to go to the prom with him my fantastic English teacher and it's beautiful idea came up in my mind.