Remember || Solby

Chapter 1

I often overthink, especially now that I dont have the one person who could distract me from my own thoughts. I often sit alone in my car, blasting the radio.
I dont particularly like the songs that play on it, but that was the whole point. He didnt like the songs either, we just thought they were catchy. Emphasis on 'we'... Now I dont find them catchy, I dont hear them at all. Its all just white noise to me.
A lot of things are different without him. You cant really cuddle by yourself, you look weird going to the movies by yourself, and double dating is really just third wheeling. I dont have him, and now I really dont have anything.
I know I shouldnt be moping around, mourning over the death of him. I know its not what he would have wanted, but I cant help it. An entire chunk of my life was just torn away from me. His life was over before it even began, and in a way, mine was too.
I now sit alone in this car, thinking about him. It's 12 in the morning and instead of being at some fast food place eating dinner with him, I'm sitting alone in a car thinking about him.
It's crazy, It really is. I mean, I thought we'd go together, you know? I never even thought about what life would be like if he wasnt here or how he'd feel if I wasnt here. And yet here I am, without him, just dwelling. I always thought it was us against the world, but now its just me.
  Just me, recounting memories and missing him more than one could miss a summer.