Things I Can't

Prolouge

Maybe I really don't love him. They say if you love someone you want them to be happy, even if you're not the reason. He deserves to be happy- even if its with her. But I just wish it wasn't in front of me.

And it's sad because I sometimes pretend he's home, and I'll cook diner for both of us, and I'll finally be happy. Even if he's really with Eleanor, I can pretend.

Maybe if I knew what I know now, I would have made our hugs last longer and I would have held him closer.

I would have looked into his eyes with more passion and love. I would have held his hand longer, and made the kisses on his skin linger.

Most of all, I could have prevented this. I could have fought for our love. Maybe if I did that, maybe I would still be holding him and calling him mine, but I'm not. He has Eleanor for that now...

I hate management for they put this on us. They made us lie, keep secrets, and they made a hole for us to cry.

But true love shouldn't have been hidden, and they had ideas to bring us down. Eleanor was their idea. I love how Eleanor was just a close friend for both of us behind closed doors, and in public they'd "date".

But I thought everything was going to be okay because true love wouldn't break, right?

Now I pass him, as he embraces her like how he once did for me, and its heartbreaking. He got over me, but I cling on to those memories everyday wishing it was a joke. I guess, this is some of the Things I Can't

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Hi, I hope you like this as its the prologue of what's going to come. I know it's very short but this is what would be Harry's "journal entry" type of thing, so I didn't make it long. Please fan, follow, and comment :-)

-Christina