If Only, If Only! (song collaboration with @Beauty_lies_within )

If you care and want me so

Then promise you will never let me go

If only, if only,

Promises were kept.

Now I'm all alone,

You laughing as I wept.

 Where do I go?

When I'm feeling so lost and I don't want to be found.

When I'm looking and listening for that peace in my heart.

But I know I'll never hear that sound.

Where do I go?

Where do I go when I'm trying to laugh but all I can do I cry?

I'm trying to keep on living because I'm not ready to die.

Where do I go because the sun never seems to shine?

Can you give me my life back it's not yours it's mine?

How do I keep going, how do I fight this fight?

I'm tired of feeling beat down, but I'm trying with all my might!

Where do I go when my head hangs so low?

Please give me an answer because I just don't know!

Where do I go?

Does it take very long?

For me to find that peace and a place where I belong.

I need you to help me, help me to take a stand.

I'm scared to do it by myself, will you please take my hand?

Where do I go? Where do I go? Where do I go?

Do you know?

If only, if only,

Help me win this fight.

Oh, how I need you!

With victory in sight.

You may see me struggle 

but you won't see me fall. 

Regardless if I'm weak or not

I'm going to stand tall. 

Everyone says life is easy 

but truly living it is not.

times get hard, 

people struggle

and constantly get put on the spot. 

I'm going to wear the biggest smile 

even though I want to cry. 

I'm going to fight to live 

even though I'm destined to die. 

and even though it's hard and I may struggle through it all. 

you see me struggle...you will NEVER see me fall.

If only, if only,

What I said is true.

Just a bunch of lies,

Broken when the wind blew.

Feeling down, alone, and empty inside,

Decisions to make, but can't decide,