If Only, If Only! (song collaboration with @Beauty_lies_within )

The moon's spreading pain.

Please, just set me free,

My blood shall become rain!

What do you call it when all you feel is pain?

When your loved ones look at you and all you feel is shame?

When your tired of living and playing this game?

When you know your life is meaningless and your the only one to blame?

What do you call it when the hurt is in your soul?

When you smile and laugh but you know its all a show?

When you feel like you've hit your all time low?

When nothing makes you happy and the darkness around you grows?

What do you call it when you feel so alone?

When your in your house but it don't feel like home?

When you look back in your life and every choice you made now seems wrong?

When the wait to die seems too long.

If only, if only,

The evil stops its spread.

Before darkness takes over,

Before we all end up dead.

Floating, heart askew 

In the dark deep tunnel of nothing 

Claw with every cell of me 

Reach out for anger greed sorrow 

Not the alone gray empty

Tiny shred of light 

I wait for, hope for 

A delusion there to help 

Hold my hand tighter

Around the severing rope

My only tie to the world 

A better life, twinkle dust 

Of joy, love, a home 

No more tears, aching soul

For a touch to hold on

Until then hope for, wait for 

The tiny shred of love.

If only, if only,

Our love had no end.

Just hope for the best,

Our love I'd defend.

Why do I feel in doubt..? Have I made the right decision?

You know how to make me happy, and my favorite position

You know when I am nervous, angry or sad

You alone are like the family I never had

To let you go now would break my heart

So why do I feel as though we will be better of apart?

Do I see you as a friend.. Or my true love to be

I can't quiet believe this is reality

I waited two years.. It seemed so long

And then suddenly it was on your arm where I felt I belonged