If Only, If Only! (song collaboration with @Beauty_lies_within )

The darkness now spreads,

What do I most fear...?

I lay on my bed soaking my pillow with my tears,

I try to remember exactly what it is that I fear.

Is it the passing of time or the love that I lack?

Is it the mistakes that I've made or the fact that I can't bring the past back?

What is it that I'm afraid of? 

Why am I so scared?

Is it the people I've hurt or the people that have hurt me?

Am I afraid of everything that I cant seem to see?

Is it the love of a friend, or the loss of my family?

Is it the possibility that my life can end in a tragedy? 

What is it that I fear most? 

What do my eyes say I'm scared of? 

Is it the sun that sets but won't seem to rise?

Is it the hope that I have that always seems to die?

Is it the trust of a person that I cannot begin to grasp?

Is it all the memories of my horrid past?

Is it me? 

Can it possibly be that the thing I fear most is the thing I can't be? 

The things that I try to understand? 

The me that I try to be with when I'm feeling sad? 

The person I'm expected to be? Is that what I fear? . . . 

I think the thing I fear most . . .is me

 If only, if only,

The sun stays with me.

Courage please come here,

Courageous I will be.

Sometimes we see things that aren’t meant to be seen.

Sometimes things aren’t always as they seem.

Sometimes we need someone to call our own,

Especially when we’re alone.

Sometimes people just can’t understand,

Why things get out of hand.

Sometimes life just isn’t fair,

Especially when people just don’t care.

And sometimes it's hard to say,

Why things have to be this way.

Sometimes it’s all you can do to get by,

Especially when dreams continue to die.

Sometimes it’s nice to sit in the rain.

Even to just relieve the pain.

And when we’ve had a really bad day,

Sometimes we just need to get away.

We never know what’s wrong with out pain.

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

And sometimes when people get hurt, 

Even the strongest ones may need comfort.

If only, if only,