My BIG Mistake

Starting

So a week before christmas break people used to say that me and a guy should go out and things like that. And imma be honest i did used to blush. So did he and that was cute tbh. So they used to us and say that wewere isis twins cuz were both like muslim and shit. And it used to be funny. So everytime in luch when my group of friends used to sit with me he used to sit there with us to and i used to sit in one end and he used to sit like in front of me. And one of my friend named Nossa she used to be ode on me and him and she kept talking about that he keeps laughing. So the break went by and its was New years. So that was the first time he ever hit me up on Fb. So i replied And said happy new years with a smiling emoji. He was like it was a daee to talk to u and i didnt believe him but i went with the flow. And i didnt really have feelings for him tbh not at all. well maybe a teennnyyy tinnyy bit. But yeah so then we started talk for 3 days . After the Three days he did something that so great that i will never forget and I hated myself for this but now i dont regret it. So yeah he asked me out. And yes my respone was no......... Im dum af ik. I broke his heart. But then he was like lmfao like a lot and was like chillllllllll it was just a dare. Then he really pissed me off i was like literally about to die in my place. I was laugjing ang about to tear down cux i was very sad for him and ik that he lied that it was a dare and he did. He even admitted to it. But yeah we still talked. Then we got to know each other more and he told me to meet him in the stair case so we could get to know each other even more. But my bummy ass didnt go i was too shy and that mybwas my bithday day and i blew him off. I felt sooo gulity. You dont even know. Then i went home from school and he texted me and he was like why didnt u go upstairs and i explained everything to him and i said sorry and stuff. Then he was like its ok its was not gonna die if u didnt show up. And when he said idek anymore i wss kinda depressed and thats when i started getting feelings for him and i didnt tslk to him for like 2 days cuz he didnt hit me up and thrn i told him how i missed our conversations and he was like he missed it to. That really touched my heart i was happy to know that. And then we made up and shut and started talking again. So a few days later like 4 days later he aske dme out again!!!Idekkkk what got into me and i said no again..... i wanted to stab myself in the heart IDEK WHYY I SAID NO even though it was clear i liked him. Anyways... he was like yeah its okay we can get to know each other more and he respected me with that. Thats what made me like him more.