I'm haunted, haunted by the my worst fears... I wish I could run away,just get away from the personal hell I've seemed to fall into. I'm not wanted, or even needed who would even care if I was gone. Every time I close my eyes I see it,he haunts my darkest dreams leaving me in shaking fear when I wake and leaving fresh pain every night. Some day he will come for me. But the question that haunts my everyday mind is when will he come back for me.
~next day ~
I wake up after yet another restless night of tossing and turning. The sweat covering my freezein body making me feel sticky , I unwillingly usher myself out if bed. Facing the mirror the worst part of the morning, I see a new mark above my eye it's not that big but my fear is he's getting stronger and stronger. What if he comes for me agian? What will I do? I shake myself from my thoughts and go through the same routine as always. After my shower I blow dry my hair and throw it up into a messy bun I sigh agian looking at the scar before I cover it and others with foundation. Dealing with this everyday is hard but what can I honestly do this is my life I can't change it. Finishing up I go to April's room I smile at her sleeping form then gently shake my little sister "wake up sis" she mumbled but slowly gets up. My sister is why I push on the reason I am still alive.
Mom tells up at us "BREAKFAST". April hurries to finish getting ready and rushes down the steps. Gosh she acts like we don't feed her I smile to myself. " Victoria come down and get some breakfast" she says I know she's my mom but when will she get the hint I'm not a kid anymore she can't make me eat. I rush down the steps grabbing my boots and bag"umm I'll just eat at school don't worry" I fake a smile but we both know the truth.
I throw on my hoodie,and groan trudgeing to the bus stop with my sister at my heel. I look at the other kids waiting and sigh please just leave me alone I internality scream. I sigh to myself even though it's may it's cold as fuck, when the metal death trap or bus as you call it pulls up I'm shakein. As we sit in our normal seat I stare out the window trying to avoid the stares of April, she knows what happens to me. But when it all started we shared a room so how couldn't she,when she found out I made her swear not to tell anyone,not even mom. April always has been close to me. Lost in thought I almost missed my stop at the high school as I rush to get off the bus I hurry to the stage my safe haven.
Sitting on the stage I physically relax,preforming the only time I'm truely alive. Preforming I can be anyone I want not just plain old Victoria, the loner. As I look at the time I groan it's almost class time 5 more minutes. I check my makeup one more time then the bell rings and I'm off to my first class Public speaking.
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Thanks my lovelies for reading tell me your thoughts and is anyone good with covers I need one for this book. That's Victoria BTW up top just she needs red hair.
