My Happy Little Pill ~ Troyler

Chapter 1

Shout out to @MalLasLama for the front cover of this story. 

This chapter has a little bit of abuse but not too bad.

Always in troyes p.o.v unless I've stated that it is someone else's.

April 8, 2012

Dear diary,

Today is the day that I'm going to come out to my parents. I am finally ready to accept the fact that I am gay. I've been scared of them hating me and not wanting to be my parents anymore especially because of what happened last year, but I'm ready. If they love me they will accept me for who I am.

I'll tell you how it goes later tonight.

My parents moved us to America late last year, which was a big change for my brother and I moving from Australia and adjusting to the different life style. But it has so far been really good; I've made a lot of new friends. I don't go to school any more, I've been focusing on my music and my mental health. I'm still getting an education I just don't attend an actually school.

The reason we moved was because of me, but the family doesn't talk about that. As I walked down the long hallway to my lounge room, my heartbeat was getting faster and faster with every step.

As I entered the lounge it felt like my heart stopped. I looked over at Tyde who was sitting on the couch on his phone, he must have heard my footsteps because he looked at me and gave me a reassuring smile.

Tyde is my younger brother. His four years younger then me, making him twelve and me sixteen. I have a younger sister, Sage, and an older brother, Steele, but they both stayed in Australia with our grandmother. I miss them a lot but they really didn't want to come, which them staying makes them happy so I don't mind.

Tyde is the only person that knows about me sexuality, even though he is so young, he was so supportive of me. He said that no matter what he will never hate me and he with always be there for me.

I took a sit next to Tyde, which got my Parents attention. I took a deep breathe before starting. "Mum, Dad, there's something I need to tell you but you may not take it very well."

"Troye what's going on?" My mum was really concerned. My mum has always been there for me, and supported me. It was her idea to move to get away from everything back in Australia.

"Um... Remember back in Australia how everyone was saying I was gay, and that people saw me kissing a guy out the back of the stadium?" I didn't look up from the ground at all.

"Yes Troye, we do" Dad said looking over at mum and then back at me. "And when I said none of it was true, people were picking on me and making it up to make fun of me more?" "Yes" my parents said at the same time.

At this time I felt Tyde's hand on my back "you can do this Troye" patting softly. "I lied..." I said really quietly, "what did you just say Troye?" My dad asked leaning forward in his chair. " I lied, I made it all up to protect myself. I wasn't ready for you to know."

"You made us believe that people were making things up about you, we moved across the country for you." My dad said with a stern voice. "How could you?" My mum asked, she sounded so upset.

This was the worst moment of my life, I hated seeing my mum sad, and it's the worst thing in the world.

"I was scared of you guys knowing the truth." I could feel my hands shaking and my breath hitching as I spoke.

My dad shook his head in disbelief as he glared at me. "What truth?" his gruff, deep voice was loud and clear and I could see my mum's hand reaching for my dad's shoulder.

"I-I um..." I stuttered. I closed my eyes and inhaled shakily. I opened my eyes and looked over at Tyde who gave a reassuring nod.

"I'm gay. The rumors weren't fake; they were true. I'm gay; I like men, not women. I like dick up my arse and in my mouth." I shouted. This sudden burst of confidence is strange, though I thought it would be good to finally get I out, I regretted it immediately as I felt my father's palm collide with my right cheek.

"HOW DARE YOU! HOW CAN MY SON BE GAY, I WON'T ALLOW THIS TO BE HAPPENING." My dad shouted in my face. My mum was trying to calm him down, grabbing his arms to stop him from hitting me again.

My mum gave me a look, which meant get out now, while you can. So I got up and ran into my room without a word, I heard Tyde follow behind me so I left the door open so that he could enter.

"Hey Troye don't cry, it's okay, dad will come around. Hey come here" Tyde crabbed my shoulder and pushed me into his chest. Even though he is so young he is the best advice giver in the world.

"What can I do to help you Troye?" Tyde didn't like to see me upset. I shook my head "I don't know Tyde, I think I need Tyler." "Then go, go see him Troye, ill cover for you. Go" Tyde is always doing this for me. His very supportive of me.

I got up and grabbed my phone leaving out the back door. I jumped our back fence and ran down the dirt road to where Tyler lived. As I got closer to Tyler's I thought I should probably find out if his home, so I quickly texted him.

iMessage to Tilly

Are you home? and can I come over? xx

I didn't get a response for a while, not until I was in his driveway.

iMessage from Tilly

Yes I'm home, is everything okay? How did your parents take it? Of Course you can come over, doors unlocked. xx

I smiled as I read the message, ever since Tyler and I meet he has always worried about me. I'm so glad that I have a friend like him, Tyler was the one that made me be comfortable about being myself. Tyler is also gay, and he helped me see that I have always questioned my sexuality when he told me he thought that he had feelings for me.

Even though it was awkward between us for a while, we got over it and everything got better until he found out about my self-harm. That made him always worried and I didn't like it, my actions were making him upset and I hated knowing that I was the reason my best friend was hurting.

As I walked through his front door I yelled out for him but no response. Tyler is 22 so he lives on his own, I walked up the stairs knowing that he is probably in his bedroom on his laptop. I slowly opened his bedroom door to find Tyler laying on his bed, watching YouTube on his laptop.

Tyler clicked the spacebar to pause it and looked up at me, "come here troye, wanna talk about it?" Tyler always knows that's something is wrong, just by the look of my face. "I don't want to talk about it, can we just lay and watch something on YouTube?" I ask as I walk over to the right side of the bed and take my shoes off. 

I got into bed with Tyler, getting under the covers and cuddling into his body. Tyler placed his arm around my back and softly rubbed it, "Tilly? Is everything going to get better with my parents?" Tyler knew that I speaking to my parents about me being gay because I talked to him yesterday when I was here.

"They will come around eventually, your their son, it might take a while but they will definitely come around. It's their job to always love you no matter what." Tyler looked me dead in the eye. "That's what I needed to hear thank you Tilly" Not once breaking the glaze.

Tyler softly kissed my forehead and pressed the spacebar to play what he was watching. We got comfortable and just laid there, watching YouTube for the rest of the night.

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I hope this was okay.

Thank you for reading and i hope you enjoyed it so far....

Love you guys