Brother's Conflict

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It was the kind of kiss that would make your heart skip a beat. It was deep, full of passion and love. But to my surprise itinulak niya ako palayo sa kanya.

"Babe, what's wrong?" Tanong ko sa kanya ng may pagtataka sa boses ko.

"It's over," he snapped at me.

"What? Don't kid me like that," i responded with a nervous laugh. He didn't look at me so i sense na hindi talaga siya nagbibiro.

"What are you saying, Luke? Come on, tell me what's wrong," i tried to reach out to him pero he just shrugged me.

"It's over. We're done," tiningnan na niya ako sa mata.

"Ano bang sinasabi mo? Wha-- No!" I stammered.

"Don't you understand? I don't love you anymore!" He said forcefully.

My head started spinning, hindi ako maka keep up sa mga sinasabi. At biglang bumuhos ang ulan.

"You don't mean that," pagpipilit ko.
"May iba na ako," he confessed.

Nababasa na kami ng ulan. Hindi ko na inintindi yun dahil ang mga sinasabi lang ni Luke ang tumatakbo sa isip ko.

Then he started walking away. Lumalayo na siya sa akin pero hindi ako makakilos. Gusto ko siyang tawagin, gusto ko siyang habulin pero ang bigat-bigat ng katawan ko.

"Sandali, Luke!" I called for him pero dire-diretso lang siya sa paglakad palayo sa akin.

Hinabol ko siya at niyakap ko ang likod niya.

"Come on, don't leave me like this. I love you," then i bursted into tears. His words are ringing in my head. I don't love you anymore. It's over. Hindi ko maalis ang mga salitang yun sa isip ko.

He pulled away from my grip and faced me.
"Alexia, stop. Wala ka na bang respeto jan sa sarili mo? Ayoko na. May iba na akong mahal kaya please."

For a split second, i thought i heard his voice crack. But he was glaring at me. Nanlilisik ang mga mata niya. Ngayon ko lang siya nakitang galit na galit. My Lucas. Ang Luke ko na kani-kanina lang ay hinahalikan ako na parang ayaw niya akong mawala sa buhay niya. That same Luke is looking at me right now as if i was the worst person in the world.

Nagsimula na naman siyang maglakad. I reached out my hand to him pero ang layu-layo na niya. Wala na ang taong mahal na mahal ko. Nawala ng ganun na lang.

Kasalanan ko ito eh. Kung mas naging mabuting girlfriend lang sana ako. Kung hindi lang sana ako naging busy sa studies ko. Kung siya lang sana ang pin-riotize ko.

I was all alone in the rain, sobbing. Crying. It was all my fault.

After a few minutes i felt something on me. I turned around to see who or what it was. Robert. It was frigging Robert. Luke's twin brother, my bestfriend.

Upon seeing his face, i bursted into tears again. His face is so identical to Luke's and it made me gasping for air.

"Ssssh, it's okay. It's okay. I'm here. I'm here, i won't leave you," he cooed habang niyayakap ako.

I wrapped my arms around him and stayed there. It was all too much. One minute Luke was there and then he was gone. Like fireworks, igniting my dark skies momentarily and vanishing like he has never been there.

Mabuti na lang nandyan si Rob. Somehow his presence soothes my aching soul.

Nagtagal pa kami sa ganoong position. Nakayakap sa isa't isa.

"Oh God, i'm so sorry. I'm a mess," i said as i compose myself. "You're soaking wet, Rob."

"Don't worry about me. Let's go basang basa ka narin," sabi niya.

~~~

Dinala niya ako sa condo niya.

"Gusto mo ba mag-shower?" Tanong niya.
Tumango lng ako.
"I'll lend you some clothes."
"Thank you," sabi ko habang papunta sa shower.

....

"Salamat dito sa damit Rob ha. Naabala pa kita," i said.
"Ano kaba sanay na ako noh," biro niya habang papalabas sa shower.

Nka towel lang siya, wrapped around his waist. Tiningnan ko siya mula ulo hanggang paa. It was totally amazing na pati katawan nilang kambal ay parehong-pareho, thinking how many times I've seen Luke naked. How familiar i am to his body and him to mine. I abruptly looked away and wipe away the tears that's threatening to escape my eyes.

"Alex," Rob called. Umupo siya sa tabi ko. "It's okay babe."

I flinched at his choice of endearment.

"Okay lang Alex na gamitin mo ako para mawala ang sakit. Use me," he boldly said.
He leaned in to kiss me and i kissed back.

This is wrong. What the hell am i doing? Am i really this desperate to use my bestfriend?

He bit my lower lip and made me gasp. He took it as an opportunity and slipped his tongue in my mouth.

"Rob," i pleaded.
"It's okay," he groaned and touch my center.

A moan escape my lips which turned him on. He laid me in the bed and peppered kisses on my neck. He helped me out of his tee and planted sloppy kisses on my breast. I tugged on his hair as my breasts hardened at his touch. Moans and groans filled his room.

At sa pangyayaring yun, si Luke na ang nakita ko. Wala nang Rob. Naging mahina ako. I was taken by my sadness.