One Call Away

Anna 1979

I am scarred for life. I am broken. I want him back, but I cannot keep punishing myself like this. Remember, it's for everyone's peace and the children. I still need someone to talk to. This wound of separation is just so deep and fresh.

...days ago...
"Hey Anna. You can always call me, okay? Dial my number, or just come to my place. I'll try my best to be there for you."

I was crying and crying after the divorce became official. Those were tears of anger and happiness. That was weird, but Frida was there to comfort me.

"Too bad we won't be having double-dates anymore as married couples in the group." I never responded as Frida kept talking.

Okay... Ex (I can't even speak of his name) and I ended well as friends, but I was saddened by the fact of the years wasted. All those memories of love, which I thought was true love, went to nothing.
...

I went to my counter (yes my counter, I moved away), grabbed the phone, and dialed Frida's number.

Ring...ring...

"Hello? This is Frida. Who's this? How can I help you?" She happily answered the phone.
I replied with a sad low tone, "Hey. It's Anna."

"I am glad that you called. How are you holding up?"

I paused as tears began to fall from my eyes. And I was trying to hold my tears as she heard me sniffing on the phone.

"I know you're crying. I can hear you. I can wait. Take your time. I will always be willing to listen to you. That's what a best friend does. I may be meters apart, but I am here for you."

I was a bit comforted. "Frida, I don't know what may happen to me without you."

"You have chosen to let him go, right? And you did that out of love, Anna. Your ex told me that he cannot bear seeing you hurt, and that is why he agreed for you to separate."

"Frida, does he really mean that?"

"You've been married for a long time. I bet you've known if he's telling the truth. His eyes were just so soft. You know he meant it. He loves you that he cannot bear seeing you cry."

"Frida, can I go there? I just need someone to hug me, comfort me, even sleep with me for the night. Don't misinterpret me, please."

"I'll be the one to go there for you. Ex is still here, you know. He's working. You know what I mean."

I laughed. "Are you sure? Aren't you supposed to be preparing for your evening session? You know what I mean." I tried teasing her though. I laughed while crying.

"Benny and I have agreed that I can be with you when you needed me most just as they are right now. They're just comforting each other here while working, making songs as an outlet of emotional baggage."

"Easy for him to say and do because he has a new girlfriend"

"There...there... Give me 30 minutes, okay? If you really need me, I'm just a call away. I'll just fix myself."

"I'll see you later, Fri-fri. Thanks by the way." The feeling was slowly becoming lighter. Her voice just has been making me happy, and her words. Wow! I sometimes wished her to be my older sister.

I am glad to have a friend like her.