Loveless

Chapter 1

I never liked anyone when I was little and my parents always thought that I always liked someone. That was never true I never had any feelings for someone. I always pretended to like someone even though I did not. Are you getting a good summary of my heart?

People always told me that I am so pretty but I don't think I'm that pretty with my short blond hair, my small lips, my blue glasses that match my eyes, and my kinda square head. The thing Like most is my Indian cheek structure. I'm really short for my age, some people say that my height makes me look like a doll. I'm also not that athletic like most kids my age and I'm skinny but a little curvy. Ok let's stop talking about me and get on with the story.

This all started when I met Carson. I was dating his best friend at the time and when ever my boyfriend left Carson stayed behind and we would talk and talk until my boyfriend came back. Flash forward a year. He is my best friend that's a boy and we always talked but a few months later we stopped talking. That made me realise that I actually have feelings for him.

When I told my friend that I like him I found out that a few of my other friends likes him too. I never had the nerve to tell them I liked him cause I knew that he liked another girl and he still likes one of my friends. My best friend always told me to ask him out but I did not want to ruin our friendship. I felt so happy when I was with him but I always knew that he could not like me back so I kept it a secret.

Always sad knowing that I was never going to date him I got a little depressed and just never showed it at school. When I got home every day I would just stay in my room and I would not eat that much. It also affected how I would talk to my parents, it was so awkward talking to my parents that I would just leave the room.