I am a successful, hard-working modern and yet grounded, traditional woman. Although things have been hard and I have felt lost and unrooted to my core, I have values and morals to which I have always kept when outside and serviced the world outside from the bottom of my heart in the honor and name of the Most High, selflessly, not for the purpose of gain, for no name or recognition.
I am successful. I have been successful in the past. Yes, life has been hard and there were many lows and falls instead of triumphs that the world around me considers as success, such as graduating from school or being in accordance to my religion, living according to the book. But, I have graduated from the School of Life. I love according to the laws of Universe. I am trying to be a Human. I am trying to awaken the Soul within me and allow the Force to carry me throughout the world, and that, is good enough for me.
I have been successful, because from a young age I have worked really hard and handled really rough situations that the mentality and a heart of a young girl should not have bared, but, I will not do that comparasant for every heart has a different capacity of how much it can bare. And the One who has created mine gave me a heart with the capacity in the size of the ocean, both has the ability to bare pain and love, in the same level and intensity. God gives us all different challenges and obstacles and tests us in our own abilities and pushes us beyond our limitations. Perhaps I should feel honoured that I am that close to Him, that he had given me this much pain, He has seen me worthy of being able to bare so much as such a young age...I hope I haven't failed....
I haven't failed because I wake up every single day. I haven't failed because I smile every day because I am with my family and I do my chores and fulfil my duties as a daughter, sister, and a wife every day. And most of all, I fulfil my duties as a woman and as a human every day. I reach out a helping hand to those of my weaker kind who go through rough days. I have not failed because I have not given up and still try, every single day to get back up on my feet. Even though the world knocks me back down before I even manage to stand up, I fall back down, I still try. I have not failed because I see the beauties and wonders in this dark, cruel world. I have not failed because through all this darkness, I still see light. I have not failed because although I am shattered, I still love. I have not failed because even though living amongst demons, I am a human.
I AM successful.
