LOST HOPE

Mum

Mum please I don't want to go , I want to stay with you,  Margo had said . " darling you have to go , remember education is the key to life go and make me proud" as I had left the house my mother  instantly stuck in my mind , I wanted to make her proud as I knew she wouldn't be there for me all my life but I didn't really want to think about that , her blonde hair and piercing blue eyes made my pain go away her smile was unique , July 14 my mother was diagnosed with stage 3 Cancer it was unbearable to hear that my mother wouldn't be with me forever, but I tried to let the pain pass. First day back in school and I feared that something would happen my fingers cringing and my heart pounding until my dad , stormed in bawling his eyes out mumbling I'm so sorry , I'm so sorry , she gone , I began to question what , she was fine out of madness , what happened ? I had dropped to the ground yelling noooo surrounded by my friends it felt like there was nothing left as if it was me against the world , he gave me a letter saying she kept this for you and told me to give this to you once , once you know , today , I understood , I had opened the letter it had stated "Dear Margo , you shine like a diamond , you are my star never forget that , when you read this please smile just as you did everyday , every night I want you to never forget me and never look down , shoot for the stars and be the best, you are the best daughter anyone could ever have , thank you for everything and look after you father for me , I love you remember have courage and be kind , you can accomplish anything never let anyone put you down my princess xx" by the time I had finished reading the note the page had become damp with the tears that puddled out my eyes , my head couldn't get round the fact it happened so quick , it was time for me and my dad to make our way to the cemetery , but we just sat in the car for 40 mins the rain tipping on the Windows in silence head to head we were ready to go and see my mother , I closed my eyes and hummed the lullaby she sang every night , I told my self that I would never let her down , never , constantly repeating myself .... I knew I had to tighten myself up and mark my mothers words look after my father and I wasn't gonna give up so easily .,..