My dark side

How I became dark

We are going to start this off on where it all began when I was just a kid. When I was growing up ll i had was an amazing brother, but that all changed after my dad and his mother moved in with each other. Before my dad and his mother moved in with each other he was always happy he would play with me and he would never hurt me but as soon as they moved in together he made my life a living hell. My brother beat me every chance he got he would leave me with bruises broken bones or make me bleed I became depressed after that but I never did any self harm because I didn't know about that. after a couple of years I had anger problems I didn't know how to control it and because of my brother I always thought about how he would feel if he was me and I was beating him but when I got into fight my dark side was unleashed I beat people until they were unconscious but why did would I care they get what they deserve for hitting me but there was always consequences but I never cared for them. so one day my brother hit me and I let all my emotions go to my dark side and I learned that if I bottle them up nothing would matter I would let them out on the kids who were picking on me, Until one day where my dark side got to a point where I became dark the dark side took over my head and i started getting weird thoughts like if  killed my brother it would make the pain go away but the good side in me told me not to do it and I listened my brother was lucky. I told my step mother about the thoughts I had and she immediately got me help and it helped me through it so I just kept bottling it up inside and i was afraid that it was going to come back and it did, But this time it really scared me because my brother hit me as a joke and I hit him and broke his noes and I got grounded for 2 months.and a few years later I was in grade 5 and some kid in class kept bothering me so I hit him and he pinned me to the ground and started hitting me and so I kicked him off and threw a desk at him and knocked him out cold and the teachers were so scared that I had to work in the office for a few months. then when I hit grade six I was the person every one was afraid of and no one wanted to be friends with me but I didn't care I made it through grade six and graduated. Fresh start at a new school with new people yet no one still wanted to be friends but one girl that I liked since the first day wanted to be friends with me and I was so happy we became best friends over the months then we dated she took my dark side away she took all my pain away she mad me happy. Then we broke up after a couple of months and everything came back but it hit me like a bus my dad and step mother split up a lot like on and off then I started to self harm but who cares about me in the shitty life I live in I had few friends and I didn't even think they were my actual friends but who knew they were they stuck beside me when I needed them most but the one person I wanted beside me wasn't there she hated me but I kept all my feelings for her right beside my heart because I would always love her. Now I'm in grade eight still with a few friends and true friends now but I have her back she made me so happy all my pain my suffering stopped i love her to death but my mind will always be a dark twisted place. like she asked me yesterday about how her book should end and it was about a boy who killed his sister and she wanted my help on what would happen to the boy the dead sister kills him or he kills his parents and i said "he's getting yelled at after getting the news from the doctor on how he could do such a cruel thing and he get's sent to his room and he thinks and when his parents went to sleep he sneaked into the kitchen and grabbed a steak knife and stabbed his father and then slit his mothers throat and watched the blood drip out and then after them both being dead brutally stab his father then grabs the gun for his fathers drawer in the bedroom and shoots himself with it" and she said "I think you need mental help, what the hell has happened in your life to make you that vicious... I'm a little scared of you now" and I never wanted her to it's just how my mind work and if you are reading this I love you please don't be scared of me it's just how my mind works. 

Shout out to:XRandomUsernameX for helping me with this idea because everyone has a dark side.