*sorry for any grammar/spelling errors I kinda proof read it and stuff. anyway, enjoy chapter 1 :)*
Calum's POV
Here I am, yet again, in a club that my mates dragged me to for the third time this week, sitting in a booth with some girl next to me, whose name I don't care to remember. She was talking and grabbing my arm trying desperately to get my attention. I honestly couldn't tell you what she was saying, nor did I care...I couldn't tell you much of anything lately. I acted like it didn't affect me, but it did. Why did I have to screw up the best thing that's ever happened to me? Push away the one person that I loved more than anything...more than life itself? All I've ever done in my life is manage to mess up every good thing that has come into it. But, she brought light into my world of darkness, as cliché as it sounds. She gave me a purpose, hell, she was my reason for breathing...my world. It seemed like we would last forever, but I managed to push her away and ruin it. I just wanted to go home and get drunk alone in my flat, like I've done for the past few months. I somehow managed to pull myself back into reality and noticed the girl was gone, she must have noticed I didn't really care enough to pay attention to her. I started to look over the crowd, and try to find at least one of the guys to tell them I'm leaving, but while looking, I saw something that made my heart shatter into a million pieces. There she was...dancing with another guy. He around 6'0", with brown, curly hair, covered in tattoos, as was I. She turned around and looked at him with a smile. She seemed...happy. That's all I've ever wanted, and still want for her. I just wish I was the one who could make that possible, but all I do is cause her pain. I turned away, but soon looked back at her, and I wish I hadn't. There she was kissing him. I felt my chest tighten, my heart physically hurt, a lump forming in my throat, it was suddenly getting hard to breath. I couldn't take it anymore. I have to get out of here, I couldn't stand here and watch the girl I love be happy with someone else. I turned my head so I lost sight of her, and rushed toward the exit. I had my eyes focused on the neon exit sign above the door, I was almost there when I bumped into another person and felt my black t-shirt become drenched in alcohol. I looked up from my t-shirt, getting ready to tell them off, but stopped...of course it had to be her. My heart stopped, and I tried my hardest to swallow the huge lump in my throat to prevent crying in front of her. She still has such a huge impact on me. We stared at each-other in shock? surprise?...maybe wonder? She was the first to speak,"Calum." I was lost for words, but it her voice was music in my ears, even though she was yelling over the music. We'd both long forgotten about my shirt, and all I wanted to do was just blurt out and tell her how sorry I was, how much I miss her, and especially how much I was still in love with her. But, I couldn't.
So I said the first thing that came to mind,"Cass."
She softy smiled and asked,"So, how've you been?" We are really about to have one of those awkward broken-up couple conversations...but it's better than nothing. I'll take what I can get. I'm grateful she's even talking to me after all of the stuff I've put her through.
"I'm okay. All considering. What about you?"
"I've been okay, too. All considering." She lightly smiled. That simple smile melted my heart at the sight. I saw her face fall, and before I could reply she said,"I really miss you. You broke my heart, shattered it into a million pieces. Yet, I still miss you everyday more and more."
Her voice cracked at the end, and we both knew she was about to cry. "I miss you too, more than you could ever know. I wish I could make it up to you, I regret what I did everyday. These past few months have been a living hell, Cass." I said putting my hand on her cheek. She leaned her face into my hand, and placed her hand on top of it.
