Started as a Dream, Ended like a Mistake

Why I Hate Love

POV of the girl......

(Recently, I felt a presence constantly behind me on my way home from school. It's scary. I don't whether I should report to the police because maybe I have mistaken but this is giving me the chills. Please.... Please.... I need help (°_°))

( No nvm, it was just my crush that wanted to ask me out*\(^o^)/* I FINALLY GOT A BOYFRIEND（≧∇≦）)

( Are u ignoring me?)
Read 2016-02-14

This is what my only single friend left sent me this afternoon and now I'm the only single one in my squad. You see, I don't believe in love. It's just a temporary feeling that you get when you see an attractive human being that you want to mate with, it's not magical AT ALL. After an average of two months of dating, they're bound to breakup.

" OMG, Morgan cheated on me with this fucking slutty bitch with huge ass tits!" said one of my best friends after dating her boyfriend for 2 DAYS

"I loved her so much, yet she fucked another guy behind my back *bawls for 10 hours" said my friend's brother after dating for a month or so.

I don't want to generalize here, but all relationships at such a young age are P.O.I.N.T.L.E.S.S. It's not like you're gonna get married with your boyfriend in high school like what they do in Shoujo manga. True,it gives you experience for finding your perfect "soulmate' but I don't fucking believe in that 'destiny' shit. Romance is fiction. None of it actually exist. When you grow older, all you do is to find a goddamn partner that suits your fucking lifestyle and taste.

And back to my life. Right now, I'm currently on my couch, petting my black cat, eating chocolate ice cream out of the container while binge watching episodes of Gintama and rewatching Fullmetal Alchemist (2003) *my personal FAVOURITE because the story plot was sadder* for the 10th time on Valentine's day while all of my "best friends" are probably eating their boyfriend's faces off. Splendid no?, friendship goals *eye roll

The first reason why I'm so salty about Love and Romance, was actually because my dad left my mom and I, 5 years ago for the reason that He never Loved Her and He Only Married her and Had Me Because of Money. What pisses me the most was defiantly he said it in front of the 11 years old me and my mom with another woman in his arms along with the divorce papers in his hands. What a jerk, he then left without another word and my mom broke down after keeping a straight face the whole time. She then called my aunt and was crying for ages in my aunt's arms.Even now, she's still sensitive about it. I was sad obviously, but as time passed, the sadness slowly but surely became fury. Something positive about this divorce was that it was finished fast and I hadn't hear a thing about that bastard since.

The second reason why I hate relationships, I used to have a boyfriend, not because I liked him but rather he asked me out. And since I'm such a nice person.... ( Hehe NO) , I accepted to be his girlfriend. I did tell him that I didn't love him but he didn't mind. We dated for about 2 months but whenever he got too chummy and clingy, I pushed him away and reminded him that my love for him was inexistent. Maybe if I have told him that I felt buttyflies in my stimach when I see him at that time, he would of never broken up with me. His love for me was probably fake. You see this is why I think Love is temporary. The day before the breakup, he said he loved me. What a Hypocrite.
Now that I think about it, he asked me out, last year on St Valentine's, but right now I think that he's probably eating his new girlfriend's face off. That's not all, what pisses me off the most was that he broke up with me by text and two days later, he got another girlfriend. And voila, a new fuckboy was made!! Girls will ask him out and he'll date them for no more than a week. Still, even though, EVERYBODY knows that he's a fuckboy, girls still date him. Asshole. Still at this, my heart aches for whatever reason whenever I see his face in the school halls. I want him back.

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Happy St. Valentine's day!!!

-Nancy sun who's single as fuck