Have you ever thought that other's life is so much happier than yours ? When you ask your friends, "hey how's life ?" And they would be talking about the holidays, the fun. While your life is basically empty.
Because youre sick, you can't go out often, you can't hop and run around the fields, you barely can walk without pain. So what you do almost every day is just laying on your bed by the window. Staring at the blue sky and slowly moving clouds, flying birds... With my earphone on and listening to musics that they never like.
I have so much plans to work out, I've been waiting for this moments after high school to finally do what I wanna do but sadly,
I can barely walk without any pain.
I read adventurous novels, watch fantasy movies, and dreamt of magical world. The world where I can be free and truly happy inside. The world where there is a lot of excitement and love. Unfortunately the kind of world I admired never did exist in reality.
I loggen on to instagram and touched the 'discover' icon, soon there are so many photos that catches my eyes. There's a woman who is so beautiful and she has a few friends around her, behind her I see the beach and the amazingly beautiful view of the mountains , the sun. And I can see how happy there are. Moving on to the next photo where I can see a cup of coffee and few paragraphs of tiny words, I bet the owner of the book and the coffe is a man, well I could see the black shiny and polished shoes and also his large yet perfectly curved finger nails by the tip of the page of the book. I can see his spectacles and his car keys. He looked so intelligent, although I can't see his face, but I can see his life that he's trying to show to the world, that he is calmly happy, and he indeed is a succecful man based on the BMW car keys on top of the brown table.
Oh my I'm so jealous of them, I check my own profile and what I see is only a picture of pale looking girl with the mixed of asian indo and her brown messy hair also not to forget the pictures of sunset and sunrise that she always admired. What people don't know is the view that she captured is the view she sees everyday through her window by her bed. She just stood there by her window and started captured the sun, again and again. In her heart, She badly wanna go out and see the world, but she can't.
She barely can walk without any pain.
