This is not your standard love letter.
It won't be filled with exaggerations.
Lies.
Fables.
Or glittering images of a false reality.
You are not my first love.
& I will not confidently say that you'll be my last.
I've learned from past experiences that, everything & everyone isn't meant to last, & oftentimes we don't know what's what until it's already over.
You were not my first kiss.
Nor were you the first to fill me up with butterflies that I wished would never subside.
You were not the first one that I took home to meet mom & dad.
You did not have the pleasure of being the first to hold my hand during a movie.
Your gentle touch was not the first that has excited me.
Your voice is not the first that has melodically echoed through my ears.
You were not the beginning.
You may not be the end.
But you're the now.
You make me more than happy, now.
I yearn for your embrace, now.
I smile when I think of you, now.
I anticipate being in your presence, now.
I mentally hold on to your scent, now.
I appreciate your mind even more than your body, now.
Your soul makes mine feel at ease, now.
Your arms are my safe haven, now.
You make all the pain, heartache, & disappointment from my past seem worth it, now.
When you really think about it, all we are truly guaranteed is right now.
This moment.
You consume my now.
Who cares if you weren't the first to love me, your love is all I want to feel now.
So I'm sorry if this wasn't sweet enough.
Or lavish enough.
Or imaginative enough.
Or girly enough.
But right now, you assure me that I am enough.
So no one before, or potentially after, you is even a thought.
I've grown tired of talking about forever.
Of getting promised a lifetime, then being left with a memory.
I'm sick of thinking I've found "the one," then getting a monkey wrench thrown in the plans.
So I will not excessively plan ahead.
I will not assume.
I will not worry.
I will be at peace, today.
You.
Me.
Us.
This.
Is everything to me.
Right now.
