A new begining

No.1 The begining

Have you ever imagined of a place where you can start all over, start new? I do everyday of my life dreaming, wondering when my day will come to start new and fresh. I am Zoey and I have severe depression, suicidal thoughts, and anxiety. And this is my story of my new beginning.

June 7, 2016

   Today I am moving today. My parents said we will be moving to Seattle and that I will have to start a new school with my annoying step brother. I was and have always been afraid of changing and moving schools. I never wanted to be the new kid, especially in High School. Nobody likes the new kids. I have always suffered from depression and anxiety as a kid and I never knew until I was in Jr. High.  With my anxiety and depression starting a new school made my live 10x worse than what it already was. I never wanted to be alone when I was a kid. I feared of dieing alone, being alone my entire life. I had to suffer years of loneliness, all by myself. When people say they fake smiles all the time, I don't think they know what it feels like, having your parents ask you every day "How was your day at school" and I would always have to fake a smile and say everything was great, while trying to hold back your tears because you know it's a lie, all of it.