Sweetest Pain

What can I say..

There's some pain inside
A brick onto my heart
Wanting to say it all
Not knowing where to start

That girl I know
Deep and wise
She's perfect though mysterious
She's an angel in disguise

I was blessed to meet you
The darkest days you lit
You were the hope that on my throne
I'll be able to sit

On that throne I sat
And you were beside me my queen
I had the world's beauty below my eyes
Yet the scenary of your eyes was the best i've seen

So I looked through your eyes
I kept looking there as they took me away
To a world of freedom and love
A world where I want to stay

But then my throne got to small for me to fit in
And it closed onto my throat
But i couldnt leave my queen
It never passed my mind that thought

I fell off her love standards
I got no longer deserving her
She started floating away
Started losing her

I wanted to dwell in a land
Full of beauty and divine
But it took a toll of me to know
That land can never be mine

I can never have it as my property
For such perfection lives in freedom
And ever since i was pushed away
Those smiles of mine appeared seldom

Rare were they to be real
For how could they be when you're not around
How could they be when I lost the one thing
It was ravishing that I found

But not a thing of this ever happened..
These are all fears haunting me every night
Causing my throne to tremble
Filling my heart with fright

I love her so much
The thought of losing her breaks me apart
For this love was the only one
To trigger the beats of my heart