The secrets of Jamie Winchester

<1> Pilot

This takes place right after dean escaped purgatory and Castiel returned. It does not include the ongoing plot line of the show and it has nothing to do with what had happened. Or what's going on in that season so yeah hope you like it👍
-AJxx

Intro
Nothing. Not a thing. It's like everything before two weeks ago is just gone. I know things, not how or why or anything I just do. I remember bits and pieces. I know I don't trust people and I know I hate myself and I must've done something to deserve it but what? Why? Who am I?
Walking. Just walking. It's all I've been doing. Running. Yes running not walking. Traveling. Going somewhere. But I don't know where. I have no idea where I'm going but I do know it's important. So I guess I'll just keep running.
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Present day

"I'M DONE TRYING!!" I screamed at him as I tangled my hands in my hair in frustration.
"You're not done. You'll find them." He replied calmly.
"Oh yeah?? I've been trying to find them for years now and I just can't do it anymore! My entire LIFE is trying to find them and obviously it just wasn't meant to be. I was never meant to know them. Sam and Dean don't even know I exist!! That or they just don't care." I answered.
"Ya know what?!" He said suddenly filled with rage and pinning me against the wall. "I'M THE ONE WHO'S DONE! I've been listening to your complaining and complaining and talking about your petty little problems about not having a family and being on your own since you were 9 and blah blah blah and here I am trying to get you to just find them and you want to know why? Because I need you to find them. So I can kill all the winchesters." He said his eyes turning black. "How could you be so blind?? You thought you could be a hunter HAH." He sent me flying across the room slamming against the other wall.
"Please."
"No." He said grabbing me by the throat and choking me. Then he threw me down to the ground his hold no less tight. He laughed letting go and standing up but before I could do anything he kicked me in the side and then kneed me in the face leaving me dazed with blood running out of my nose.

"M'am are you alright?" I looked up quickly snapping out of it and realised I had been standing in the middle of a corner store staring at some chips for who knows how long.
"Um yeah sorry. Just zoned out." I said to the man working at the register. What did I just remember...