The other day I got into a fight with three of my friends. Me and my other friend were on the same side. My friends were talking behind his back and so I decided to stand up for him and this lead to that. We all started yelling at each other and called each other some horrible names. I regret everything I've said. But they don't want to be friends anymore and I don't feel well. Not mentally or physically. I cried, I still am crying. I lost 4+ friends but I only fought with three. One is fine with me and the other two told everyone else... Idk what to do anymore.. So many people hate me and so many people don't understand how I'm feeling. I'm depressed, severely. I feel unwanted, ignored, sad, lonely, isolated from almost everyone.. I'm almost to the point where I'd rather not be alive, and I already feel dead inside.. If I were to look in the mirror I would see my eyes no longer glimmer with the excitement and happiness I once knew, I would see that they're red from crying. I would see a fake smile plastered on my face so that my family doesn't know anything is wrong. I would see a person who is no longer there, one that has died.. I didn't mean to hurt them if I did, I did not meant to hurt their feelings, but I can't bring myself to say sorry or to look at them. And if you are reading this, you know who you are; I'm sorry, I can't believe we fought over something so stupid.. I hope you can forgive me.. And if not then goodbye..
