Thoughts

Emotions

I really always wanted to confess my feelings for you but I don't have the courage yet to tell you how much I love you, how much I wanted you, and how much I love to spend my time with you.

I can't tell you what it really feels like, its just I'm scared of what will happen if I tell you that, "I Love You", its because of what we had, cause' we've been bestfriends for a long time and I'm so scared of loosing our friendship, I'm so scared of loosing everything, and I'm so scared of loosing YOU.

Its so hard for me to express everything because it gives me worries and sorrow, and it kills me just thinking of that "What ifs".

What if I took it too far that you moved away too far, and what if you're not thinking the same, what if you're not feeling the same?, you know that it would kill me.

I hate it when you're not around and knowing that you're with someone else, I hate it when you're mentioning every other boy's name and not mine, everytime you do that, it hurts me, it makes me crazy.

I know its hard for you to know that your bestfriend fell in love with you, its hard to remain the same, its hard to retain our current friendship, everything can be hard, but for you to know, I will be the same and I will not try to change anything.

Now I just wanted to tell you that, I LOVE YOU, if you're reading this I hope you'll never change the way you care for me, your sweetness, and your thoughtfulness.

Now if you wanted to avoid me or to have some space, be angry or anything, I want you to know that I will still love you the same, I'll never change, the way I look at you, the way I've been sweet to you, how I've been protective and the way I care for you.